33. tourist. michael fassbender.
← EVERYONE HAS A NAME, SO WHAT'S YOURS?
my name is deacon julian ross. call me deacon or you can call me julian. don't call me dj. i'm too old for that shit.
← WHAT DO YOU DO FOR A LIVING?
i'm an investment banker. i'm based out of los angeles and new york. i've had a successful career for almost ten years now. straight out of college, had an intern and now, i'm one of the best. all i want is the best for myself. i didn't get any help from anybody, i did all of this on my own. in a way, i have to say that i'm lucky that i made it this far in my life.
← SO TELL ME, WHAT WAS YOUR CHILDHOOD LIKE?
my childhood? (sighs) that's something i really don't talk about. i like to stay away from that part of my life. when deacon was younger, him and his sister were molested as a boy by a family friend. it went on for several years until their mother found out about it. she told their father about it. the woman was sent to jail and it was something that they never talked about again in the household. it didn't make anything better for the family. their father started to blame their mother for bringing the woman around and not being able to protect their children. mother became a drinker and went down hill afterwards. his family couldn't keep it together and his parents end up getting a divorce and his father ended up getting custody of him and his sister, leaving his mother to live and eventually die on her own.
← SO HOW'S THE LOVE LIFE GOING?
(shakes head) i don't have a love life. i haven't had one in a long time. what is a love life exactly? (laughs a bit) i mean seriously. i really don't know what love is. i don't want to be loved. i like what i have going on right now. i really don't care for it. i don't need it. i've gotten this far without it. i like having sex, that's it. nothing more, nothing less. i don't know if i'll ever have my moment of having love. (shrugs)
← IS THERE A REASON WHY YOU DON'T WANT LOVE?
it leaves you in heartache at the end of it all. i don't want to deal with the bullshit. after seeing what it did for my parents, i don't want it. i don't want the whole marriage thing and whatever else that comes with it. who knows, maybe i'll have a change of heart…in like ten years (laughs, sighs) but right now, i'm happy just the way i am.
←WHAT ARE THE THINGS THAT YOU FEAR?
what do i fear? (thinks) i know. losing everything that i have in life after working so hard for it. that to me is such a devastation. i don't see myself doing anything else but this. i love what i do and the checks, (smirks) i love them even more.
←SO HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
i'm a very professional man. i do my job and i do it well. i have charm and sometimes, that helps me out with my job and keeping the clients happy. i've done a bit of ass kissing, but now, it's me getting my ass kicked from the guys that i used to be. it's great to be on top. (smirks) when i'm not at work. i'm cool and laid back. i like to have a few drinks, smoke a cigarette. i'm a bit of a flirt. i like to be around women. i love women. (chuckles) i say whatever they want to say, just to get them to go home with me at night or during the day. i can be quiet sometimes. observe the people around me before letting them know i'm around. but don't let the quietness fool you. i'm not the type of guy to mess with. we can be friends or we can be enemies. it's your choice on how you want it to go.
← LET'S GET PERSONAL, WHAT'S YOUR SECRET HUN?
you're telling me right now, what's going on between me and you, that's not personal and now, you want a secret. hmm. (shakes head) you don't get one sweetheart. (smirks) his name is deacon j. ross and is a sex addict. but his doesn't just stop with the sex. whenever he's not working, he's on his computer, watching porn, going to bars, picking up women, hell he would have a prostitute or two just get his needs. there are times where he will masturbate in a public bathroom. it's something that he can't live without. it's almost like a sickness. he does whatever he has to do to get it. it's something that he keeps very secret from his job and even the few friends the man does have. it's something that he doesn't want to get out. he doesn't want it to fuck up his reputation. he's the best of the best and if anyone found out, he's done for.
← PROMISE I WON'T TELL. SO WHAT ARE YOUR GOALS?
i already have my future plans going for me right now. i don't have any more goals. i've accomplished them. (smiles)
← WELL THAT SOUNDS GREAT. I GUESS I'LL SEE YA AROUND RIGHT?
how about tonight? your place, around 8?
channy. pacific. feeling great.