Aeryn Matthews - September 15, 2011 04:08 AM (GMT)
In the month or so since returning from their honeymoon, Aeryn and Zach had fallen into a comfortable - not quite routine, but something close to one. Like any married couple, they had their good days and bad days, their spats and their make-up sex. If someone had asked Aeryn's opinion before she and Zach had slept together that first time, she would have said it would never have worked. Was it because of how quickly they'd ended up in bed together, or was it just the whole 'sex changes things' cliche? There was no telling, and Aeryn didn't much care. She was actually rather enjoying being married, and being married to Zach.
She had been working her ass off all week - most of the month in fact - and was mostly just lounging around today. It was good to take a day to relax once in awhile. Aeryn hadn't eaten much for breakfast, but had decided nachos sounded like a grand idea for lunch. Or - at least a midday snack. While she was cutting up the cheese she noticed an off smell. It was a brand new package though, and it was still far from the expiration date. She shrugged and continued on. It wasn't strong enough to be worth worrying about.
Aeryn popped a piece into her mouth as she was cutting, and paused a moment at the queasy feeling as it hit her stomach. She waited for it to pass, but it only got worse. She dropped the knife onto the counter without noticing the loud clatter it made, and ran for the bathroom. The door slammed behind her, and she retched up the contents of her stomach.
When she was done, she flushed the toilet and sat there a moment with her back against the wall. Once she was feeling steady again, she stood and rinsed out her mouth before brushing her teeth. She even went so far as to swallow a tiny bit of mouthwash to get rid of the taste and smell in the back of her throat before emerging from the bathroom with the intent to toss the remainder of the cheese away and pick off the pieces she'd already cut up to throw those away too.
Zachary Matthews - September 18, 2011 05:35 AM (GMT)
As Zachary's car pulled up in the driveway, he parked in the garage and entered his house. He had volunteered to do an emergency house call for a little boy who had a high fever and was complaining of stomach pains. It didn't take him long, and he didn't mind helping on a Saturday, but he still missed spending the mornings with his wife. They had been married for almost two months and he wasn't complaining, Aeryn really didn't give him reason to be upset, except for when they had their bicker wars but that was it. He hung his jacket on the coat hanger in the foyer before entering the kitchen, the fresh aroma of cheese caught his attention. As he walked into the room, he noticed his wife tossing them in the trash like they were no good. He swore he just bought that package the other day. "Was there something wrong with them?" He asked out of curiosity, if she wanted to waste food that was on her but he bought that cheese because he intended to eat some too and now his intended snack was in the trash. He fished the package out of the trash and looked to see if it was expired and surprisingly it was far from the date.
He knew that this was normal behavior, but he couldn't help but wonder what was wrong with his wife. Was she sick? He didn't think so, she wasn't sleeping any different, she wasn't even throwing up and she was on the pill so it wasn't like she was pregnant. He stood behind her and wrapped his arms around her, picking up a small piece of cheese that she missed. The cheese tasted fine, what the hell was she throwing up perfectly good pieces of cheese away for? "Baby?" He asked, kissing the skin on her neck softly. "Is everything okay?" He didn't know what to think, she seemed fine, maybe she was just in a pissy mood, maybe she was on her period or something. At the mention of periods he froze, shit. When was the last time she was on her period? It hadn't been for awhile, actually, did she ever have a period with him? He had a mental freak out inside of his mind, what if she was pregnant? "Aeryn, when was the last time you had your period?" It was a simple enough question, but a question that needed an answer nonetheless.
Aeryn Matthews - September 18, 2011 07:25 AM (GMT)
"Hey, hon" Aeryn said cheerfully, looking up for a moment when Zach came in from the house call. She relaxed into his embrace when he put his arms around her, and smiled when he kissed her neck. A little shiver went through her at the kiss. Her neck was one of her more sensitive areas.
Aeryn wrinkled her nose slightly when he ate a piece of the cheese. "Oh, yeah. Everything's fine. I wouldn't eat that though" she added with a gesture to indicate the cheese. "It's gone bad." It didn't surprise her much that he didn't notice. Guys tended not to notice things like that unless there was fur growing on it or something. Hell, some probably didn't notice even then.
The question about her period made Aeryn freeze in the middle of reaching for her glass of water. It was on the tip of her tongue to say last month, but that wasn't right. The month before then? Maybe? She'd definitely had one since being married. Hadn't she? She knew she'd missed last month for sure, but hadn't though much of it. It wasn't like she had morning sickness or any other symptoms.
Aeryn felt a cold knot form in her belly, and the color drained out of her face. There was no way she could be...what her husband seemed to be implying. No way. Uh uh. It just couldn't be. She'd never once missed a pill, even before she met Zach. This was not supposed to happen this soon. They were supposed to wait on this.
"Aw fuck me" she swore softly but emphatically, her brain grasping onto the fact that pregnancy was actually a possibility despite her being on the pill and never missing a dose. The pill wasn't a hundred percent effective, after all...no matter what kind you had.
Zachary Matthews - September 21, 2011 04:25 AM (GMT)
There was nothing wrong with the cheese, was there something wrong with his wife? Zachary's confusion was about to be answered as his wife's reaction changed, his face turned white. Oh, fuck. They didn't use a condom, but she was on the pill, right? Shit, how long had she been pregnant? How far along was she? Were they even ready for this? He placed a hand on the counter and looked at her, "We've been married for almost two months and you haven't had your period at all?" He swallowed hard, what if they got pregnant from the first day they met? That meant that she would be nearing two months if she were pregnant. He ran a hand through his hair and swallowed hard, there was no need to panic, after all, it wasn't confirmed. "Well, I guess we could schedule an appointment, just to be sure..." This was too soon, he was ready for this, he was sure of it but he didn't think he'd see tiny feet running all over the place this soon.
He didn't know what to say, he wasn't sure what to do. He was freaking out inside because he went from a guy who spent his days at work and his nights with his wife to a man who could have a child on the way. There was nothing to be worried about, except for the fact that they didn't have anything prepared physically for the potential child. It wouldn't be that hard, but still, were they prepared mentally for this? Could he be a father, could she be a mother? He replayed his words over again in his head, did he forget who he was? He was a licensed doctor, he did this for a living with all the pregnant women in this town. "I can do it, we don't need an appointment." He walked out of the room, and found his house call bag waiting where he left it. He reached inside and pulled out his kit and brought it back to the kitchen. He would do both tests, the urine test and the blood test. He wanted to be sure if she was pregnant and if she were, he wanted to know how far along they were. "Here, I need you to pee in the cup." He handed her the clear cup and then set up his needle. "Once you're done with that, I'll draw the blood and we should have a definite answer." He'd take the blood and work on it himself, he didn't do the blood work a lot, but he had to do it in some cases. "If it is, it is. We are keeping it if we are, just so you know."
Aeryn Matthews - September 21, 2011 05:11 AM (GMT)
Aeryn turned around to look at Zach, her face at least as pale as his if not more so. He wasn't the only one freaking out mentally - not by a long shot. Her eyes were slightly wider than normal, and she slowly shook her head no in response to his question. Shit - she'd continued to take the pills this whole time too. The paper they always gave you with them at the pharmacy said to stop taking them the instant you saw signs you might be pregnant. Aeryn hadn't noticed anything, really...no morning sickness, no out of the ordinary breast sensitivity...nothing like that. What if her continuation of the pills had damaged the baby or something?
Her mind processed the comment about the appointment to confirm, and she nodded vaguely. Yeah, that would be good. Maybe she ought to go to the store and pick up one of those at home tests or something too, though. Before she could mention that, Zach said they didn't need an appointment and disappeared from the room. She caught on to what he meant when he returned with the bag. Damn her wits were slow today. Of course - given the circumstances, it wasn't that surprising.
Aeryn's hand was shaking a little when she took the cup. She took a step or two towards the bathroom, then paused and turned to give Zach a flat look at his comment about keeping it. "Well, yeah. I planned on it. Unless it's a tubal thing or something else likely to kill me, I intend to carry to term. And I'll be damned if any kid of mine gets put up for adoption for any reason." There were too many kids in the system already. She could not in good conscience add another to an already overburdened system. The slight unsteadiness of her voice took any sharpness out of her words that might have been there at any other time.
She didn't have anything against abortion, but she wasn't having one without a damn good reason - like one of the things she'd mentioned to Zach, or if it was going to pop out looking like a sideshow freak or something like that. The media would never leave the kid alone, and she wasn't going to put a child through that sort of thing for any reason. The world was not a kind place sometimes.
She disappeared into the bathroom, and peed into the cup without getting so much as a drop outside of it. It wasn't much, but it would hopefully be enough. Sealing it tightly to avoid spillage, she went back out after taking care of the usual post-bathroom business.
Aeryn set the cup down and silently held out her arm for Zach to draw the blood without bothering to sit first. She was still paler than usual, a bit of the freak-out mode her mind was in was evident in her eyes, and her body was tense as all hell. Her arm was steady though, the shaking in her hand a few minutes ago gone at least for the moment.
Zachary Matthews - September 23, 2011 09:33 PM (GMT)
Slowly, Zach's mind began to calm itself down, he had done this countless times, women occasionally didn't have periods there was no reason to stress about this and most likely this would turn out to be a false positive and they'd laugh this over. But, what if this wasn't a scare, what if it was the real thing? Well, he had a back-up plan, naturally. He'd have Grant be her doctor, only fair since he was going to be Grant's doctor for his wife, plus he trusted Grant. He was worried, because he watched her take birth control, he knew there was nothing confirmed about the dangers and risks of taking the pill while pregnant, but still, one had to be concerned. He felt like shit, because he wasn't being comforting like he was with the other women who vacated his office. He wasn't flirtatious, just shockingly sympathetic. He'd tell them it was okay, he'd try to make them smile and they left his office with a piece of mind and a slightly less problematic anxiety problem. Pregnancy was a scary thing, but he didn't think he'd be dealing with it this soon in his marriage, hell for all his baby could be older than his marriage to Aeryn.
He watched her walk into the bathroom as he set up his kit for the drawing blood. Her words bothered him, if it were in her fallipion tubes, he wouldn't have a second thought about getting rid of it, he didn't want to think about Aeryn dying because of something they did. He placed his hand against the kitchen counter, wanting nothing more than for this to be over with. He didn't like it when things were on the other foot, it was scary and unpredictable. He didn't know what would come out of it but he knew he could handle it, they could handle it together. She reemerged from the bathroom and he took the cup from her hands and set it aside. She held her arm out for him and he drew the blood carefully, glad that his nerves had settled long enough to not accidently stab her in a major artery. He wondered if he injured her, would she file a malpractice suit, would it be legal for a wife to sue her own husband over a bad procedure. He shook off the idea and secured the vial of blood, removing the needle and wiping the area clean before placing a band-aid over the area which the needle was just removed moments ago.
He left, told her he'd be back soon and headed off for his office. It took some time, but within two hours he was back at his house. In his hands was the results from her test, with shaky hands he walked into the living room, finding his wife in the room. "Well, depending on which way you look at it, I have some good news or bad news." He set the lab results on the coffee table and sat down with his head in his hands, rubbing his face. "We are going to have a baby." He removed his hands and he looked at her, "And, to make things even better... We most likely got pregnant the day we met." He rubbed his hands on his pants before returning his focus to her, "That puts us at about seven weeks, give or take."
Aeryn Matthews - September 24, 2011 09:26 PM (GMT)
Aeryn barely felt the needle when it punctured her skin. She wasn't sure if she ought to be annoyed about Zach's silence or not. Part of her was, but mostly she was just glad he didn't try to give her empty words. For some reason, the bandaid made a small smile flick over her lips for a moment, then it was gone.
After he left, she tried doing some of the tai chi exercises Mei had taught her. She couldn't concentrate though, and instead zoned out in front of the TV. Her eyes were on it, but she wasn't seeing or hearing it really. Her mind was running over the possibilities. Was she really pregnant or was it something more serious? If she was, was it ectopic or was it normal? Countless other questions ran through her mind as well.
When Zach returned, Aeryn nearly jumped out of her skin at the sound of the door opening. She shut off the TV when he walked into the living room and waited for him to tell her the results. One eyebrow arched slightly at the 'good new, bad news' comment, and she waited silently for him to continue. Her stomach knots loosened a bit at the confirmation. She wasn't quite sure how to take the news. She did have to admit to some relief, though - relief that it was only a baby, and not some weird disease or something.
"The first time? Seriously?" Aeryn replied, her eyes widening slightly. She wasn't sure if she wanted to laugh or cry about that part of it - maybe both. The Fates sure did have one fucked up sense of humor. She stood and walked over to her purse, where she kept her birth control pills. She looked at the pack for a moment - a pack that only had a couple of pills gone from it - then turned and chucked it into kitchen trashcan before returning to the sofa.
Aeryn fell silent a moment or two, then smirked slightly. "Well, so much for waiting" she said with a soft huff of laughter, or maybe annoyance - or a little of both. It was hard to say at the moment. "And it's a good thing we did decide to get married."
Yeah, that would've been a fun thing to try to explain if she'd married someone else after that night instead of Zach. Hi, honey. Guess what? I'm pregnant. Oh, and it's not yours. It's this other man's who I slept with once before you and I met. Oh yes, that would go over splendidly. Not. Thank all that was holy she didn't have to deal with that kind of drama. Sure this was an oops baby, and sure it had been conceived before marriage - but she was married to the man she'd made the baby with, and she did want kids. She just hadn't been expecting to get pregnant this soon.
"If we're at seven weeks, that gives us...about seven months to get everything sorted" she mused aloud. Her mind ran through all the things they would need for a baby. Damn, it was a lot. "I'll have to keep my consulting to over the phone, and via emails and such now, too."
Aeryn didn't like the idea of not being able to go out in the field and whatnot for her work like she'd done before, and the face she made at those words reflected that. She liked the idea of endangering her unborn baby even less, though. No way was she going to put the baby in danger by going out in the field where there was a chance she might get blown to bits. She wasn't going to go leaving her kid without a mother too, so even after the baby was born it would be emails and phone calls for her...maybe lab work once the baby was old enough to start going to school. Provided she didn't get pregnant again before then.
Well maybe being a stay at home mom wouldn't be too horrid. As long as she could still work in some fashion, and retain something of her independence. Zach better not expect her to suddenly turn into Susie Homemaker though - because that was so not happening.
Without thinking about it, Aeryn leaned over and rested her head on her husband's shoulder. One hand drifted to rest lightly on her stomach. "So. We need to start thinking up names, and settle on one for each gender. That way we're covered either way. There's a shit ton of stuff to get too." Aeryn wondered if she could find someone to go with her. Evan, maybe - since she had twins already. Or maybe Evan knew someone who'd go shopping with her - because Aeryn didn't have a damn clue when it came to baby stuff.
Zachary Matthews - September 26, 2011 02:17 AM (GMT)
For the first time in his life, Zach was being faced with something difficult that money couldn't fix. He hadn't been faced with something like this before, sure he had pregnancy scares but they were always false. Most of the time, he found out it was because they wanted a chunk of parent's money, and also when they heard the words med student, they just assumed they were bringing in the bank. People were cruel and selfish but that was how it went, they wanted money and they wanted money without working and Zach understood that, he was like that before going to school. He wanted to sit on his ass and do nothing for the money he was receing, but people change, they eventually grow up or grow out and in Zach's case he grew up once he met Aeryn Dex, well Matthews now. Things were going as a less than pleasant pace, he didn't want to know but he wanted to know and he was about too. He didn't want this to affect their relationship, but he knew it could strengthen it. However, Zachary was ready for this, he was ready to be a father and he would be.
Zach wanted to clone himself and punch himself in the face, because he had gotten his wife pregnant on their first meeting. It was one of those things that were sad and funny, he had gotten her pregnant after challenging her to have sex with him on their first meet and greet, real classy of him. The good thing was that only they would know, after all it wasn't exactly something you shouted out to people. It didn't annoy him, it was just amusing that fate was cruel. He was partially to blame for it, stalking his ex-fiancee and harassing her, and then wham, knocking up some girl that he was to be married to. This was probably something Evan would laugh at in her 'I'm better than you, Zach' hate fest that she seemed to have towards him. He wouldn't doubt she would have wished this on him, giving Zach a nice taste of his own medicine. He mocked her and her children and now with some time he would have a child of his own, he would have a son or a daughter to look after and worry about. Each gender would come with it's own setbacks and perks and Zach was worried about which hand he was going to be dealt.
He watched her throw out her birth control, probably a wise choice since they weren't going to do any good for her anymore. "I guess if I didn't, you'd be hunting my ass down for child support." Honestly, if he didn't marry Aeryn, and she was pregnant, he would have still been in the child's life but this was a much better alternative in his opinion. The time was almost frightening to him, seven weeks was a lot, almost two months she'd been pregnant without them knowing. He wondered how long it would have taken them to figure it out if Aeryn didn't have a sudden dislike to cheese. Eventually, he would be able to physically tell she was with child by the way she walked and naturally her stomach which would grow in size with time. "That's a good idea, I'd hate for you to be exploding things and the baby gets harmed because of it." Sometimes he wondered what exactly his wife did at work, but he figured it was better to let it be almost unsaid, he didn't want to have to worry about her while she worked.
"I like the name Asher, for a boy." He placed his hand on her stomach, it was still too soon to feel any real signs of movement, but it still felt strange. "You can pick the girl's name since I've never really pictured myself being a good girl's name picker. I can't do feminine all that well." He kissed her head softly, "We'll have to go shopping, get a nursery ready." He wondered if they would have enough time to get everything ready, two months already cut out was a lot.
Aeryn Matthews - September 27, 2011 04:44 AM (GMT)
"Damn right I would" Aeryn said with a soft snicker. She could safely say Zach knew her rather well. She'd go after any man who'd fathered a child on her for child support if she wasn't married to him. If a man helps to make it, he should damn well help support it at least financially. How much involvement she'd have allowed were they not married she couldn't say, and thankfully it was a question that didn't need to be answered.
She couldn't help smiling a bit at his comment about her work. It was oddly sweet. "That, and if I'm out in the field or even in the lab and something goes wrong, this little tadpole could end up without a mother. I can't take the risk" she said, her voice softer than usual.
Aeryn thought a moment about the name, then nodded slightly. "I like it" she said. Her fingertips traced the back of Zach's hand lightly as a smile played at the corners of her mouth. "Lillith for a girl's name" she added after a moment. Funny - naming it was easier than she'd been led to believe. But of course she wasn't complaining. No doubt things would get stressful enough later without bickering over the name.
"Maybe we ought to make a list or something. Because otherwise something will be forgotten." She snuggled a little closer to Zach as she spoke. "And I'll admit I'm rather clueless on handling babies, so we should probably get some books or something." Aeryn wondered if there was an instruction manual on how to change a diaper, and other things like that. Maybe she could find the information online. You could find anything online, if you looked hard enough.
Zachary Matthews - September 29, 2011 04:35 AM (GMT)
He really didn't like this new found Zach, he didn't like being worried about the lives of other people. It was a constant battle, being at work and wondering how his wife was doing and now he'd be adding the stress of wondering about his child. Of course, it wouldn't be as bad while she was still harboring the baby inside of her, it would just be like worrying about his wife times two, hopefully times two because he didn't think he could handle anymore surprises. One child, he could deal with, one baby at a time. He wasn't sure if he could handle more than one, but he was sure he didn't have to worry about that since twins weren't common in his blood line, perhaps maybe in Aeryn's but that would have to wait until the ultrasound, he wouldn't waste time by worrying about it now. He couldn't help but smile at the comment about the tadpole, their tadpole like a little seedling waiting to be turned into a tree. The thought of children and the curiosity of what he was having was getting to him. She was seven weeks in, soon she'd be out of her first trimester and soon they'd find out what they were having.
He wanted a boy, wasn't sure if he could handle a girl and all their problems though if it was half like Aeryn, he wouldn't have to worry about her being prissy or complaining about her boobs or other things, Then again, if needed he could just ignore those comments and direct them to her mother. He could see these conversations now, the whole go ask your mother routine starting in his mind. "Lilith is nice, classic." It was one of those older names that weren't exactly common in today's queue of names. Maybe it was because Aeryn and him had become so close that a complicated thing like naming their child became simple. He didn't want to argue with her, plus it wasn't like she threw a horrible name as a suggestion. He wrapped an arm around her, bringing her in closer. "Books, crib, stroller. The list goes on and on." Sure, he knew the medical side of having a child, but didn't know where to start when it came down to actually having his own child."I'm sure there is a website for clueless parents to be."
Aeryn Matthews - October 1, 2011 03:35 AM (GMT)
Aeryn liked the softer Zach a whole lot better than the asshole he'd been before they had sex. It was sweet how he expressed concern for her but at the same time tried to not be obvious about it sometimes. She didn't know if it was a guy thing in general or if it was just how Zach was. It didn't much matter in the long run, she supposed. It wasn't like she was going to be back on the market again at any point.
She still wasn't entirely sure why she'd responded to the challenge instead of just telling him off, but she was glad she had... and not just because he was good in bed. He'd turned out to be a pretty decent human being... of the fun and interesting variety, rather than the stuffy and boring sort.
She smiled and scooted a bit closer, nestling into his warmth and draping an arm over his waist when he put his arm around her. "Yeah. Babies need a lot of stuff for such little things." It was amazing just how much you needed for a baby. If Aeryn had been a different sort of person, she might have been overwhelmed by it all. She'd dealt with explosives and firearms and other things that could kill you in an instant... and had done so for fun as much as work sometimes.
"Probably. There's a website for damn near everything else, so why not that too" she said with a chuckle. "I could probably get pointers from some of the other women in town who have kids, like Evan or... hm... I don't really know anyone else with kids, come to think of it." She was going to have to get out more, and meet others. Though... that would likely happen on its own once the tadpole popped out or once she started showing.
Zachary Matthews - October 2, 2011 04:01 AM (GMT)
He guessed it was marriage that made him change, he didn't want to be a complete loser and be like the other whipped men in town and gush about how his wife changed him for the better because his wife already knew that. No sense stroking her ego more than it had to be. The idea made him smile, her being overly pleased with how he had changed, taking credit for making him a better person to society. In all reality, she would have every right taking credit for that. It was her doing after all, and perhaps a small part rested within himself.
But, now their marriage was going to change, it wouldn't be just him and Aeryn. There would be a child running around his house, crying for their attention, needing their love and protection. He wasn't afraid, he was worried. Worried about how he was going to do this, what if he never got the paternal feel, what if he was a terrible father like his own? Would he be able to learn the fatherly instinct, would he just have to ignore his own child because he didn't know what to do with it? He was concerned but he wouldn't tell her about this, eventually he would find out on his own.
"Maybe we should hold off buying things until we know what it is, that way we can pick the right gender things and not have to return it. Or pick neutral colors, like yellow." He didn't want to be a lame parent and not know either. When his child popped out, he wanted to know what it was and have a room ready for it. He wanted to prepared, he didn't want surprises, especially after today. "That would at least give us some time to prepare."
He wanted a boy, didn't all fathers want a boy? He wondered if Aeryn was the opposite and wanted a little girl to welcome their house. One of them would be disappointed in that case. However, it wasn't like they couldn't have more. "We are no better than teenagers who get themselves knocked up because they weren't careful." He said with a small chuckle, "Don't worry, we'll figure things out in time. We have time, plenty of it."
Aeryn Matthews - October 4, 2011 03:37 AM (GMT)
"Most things, yes" Aeryn agreed. "But we can get the bigger things like a crib, changing table, such." There were things they could get now, without needing to know the gender. To decorate the room though, they'd need to know what they were having. Clothes and diapers and the like would have to wait too.
A faint trace of a smile flitted across Aeryn's lips at Zach's comment about figuring things out and having time. "I hope so" she said softly, a hint of fear lacing her tone. Her arm tightened around his waist, and she turned her face into his neck so the hint of fear in her eyes wouldn't be obvious.
Fear was a new emotion for Aeryn, and she wasn't sure she liked it. She was worried about being a good mother, about the effect the birth control pills might have had on the baby, about whether or not they'd have everything ready in time, and about the whole 'being pregnant' thing. Given Zach's past, would he decide to go looking for sex elsewhere - especially when she started to show? Aeryn was annoyed at herself for having such thoughts and fears, and did her best to push them away. She didn't like them and wanted them to go away.
A soft laugh escaped her throat at the talk of being no better than teenagers. "Well, we're a little better than teenagers. We were engaged at the time, and got married long before there would've been any symptoms in a normal woman" she replied. Aside from that though, he wasn't far off the mark... especially with as often as they went at it.
Zachary Matthews - October 6, 2011 04:20 AM (GMT)
Things would have to be done, they would need to pick out the crib and the bedding but things like that could wait until they knew the gender. He'd be damned if he had a son and the room was pink or yellow. Yellow was alright, but he'd rather wait until he knew the genders before buying things like that. He threw in painting the walls in there as well since they would probably pick out a color for the baby to match the furniture. They still had time, she was only at the beginning of her pregnancy and at seven weeks like she was everything was still in the air.
The rule was usually twelve weeks for certainty, people got excited too soon into the pregnancy and ended up miscarrying. Still, he couldn't help but feel a little excited by the idea of having a namesake. Something he didn't he'd ever have. He bet his father would be thrilled, but only if it was a boy. His mother would be excited at the idea of grandchildren, especially in wedlock. She assumed that Zach would end up knocking some girl up, she was hoping Evan Johnson when they were in high school but that never happened.
She just thought, as did most people that a marriage and pregnancy worked best, especially for visiting. If he had knocked up some stranger, they probably wouldn't let them see his parents, hell, Zach wouldn't even let them see his own parents if he could. They weren't terrible, they were just assholes. He didn't even like being around them, especially since it didn't seem like he would ever own up to be good enough for them. It was funny, him being a doctor wasn't good enough for the Matthews, he had an amazing house, a nice car and a beautiful wife but he was nothing in their image.
"Yeah, slightly better." He still wasn't thrilled about the time of conception, partially because he blamed himself but there was nothing he could do at this point, she was already pregnant. Still, the thought of her body changing sparked his interest. Her breasts would enlarge, he could live with the expansion of her stomach, it wasn't like a few extra pounds would hurt her. He kissed her neck, his hands on her stomach. "I hope the baby doesn't make you sick, or miserable." He didn't want her to have a bad pregnancy because of something he caused.
Aeryn Matthews - October 7, 2011 01:54 PM (GMT)
Aeryn wasn't exactly leaping for joy over the time of conception - things would not have been pretty under these circumstances if it had gone badly between her and Zach. They hadn't though, so she could focus on taking care of herself and just being pregnant instead of hunting him down for child support.
Her pulse jumped and her body arched into him a little at the kiss on her neck. The concern he expressed and the way his hands rested on her belly made her lips curve into a soft smile. She sat up a bit so she could look directly at him. One hand lightly cupped his cheek. "Considering there was no sign other than a couple of missed periods until I tried to eat cheese, I think I'll be okay" she replied, flashing a grin at him.
She pressed her mouth to his for a gentle lingering kiss, then settled back in against him. Her parents' reactions to her being pregnant should be interesting. They were half hoping she'd have kids one day, and half hoping she wouldn't because of her career. She knew they probably weren't expecting her to ever get pregnant. That made her wonder how Zach's parents would react. Aeryn hadn't met them yet, so she couldn't even begin to guess. Hell, he hadn't even mentioned them that she could recall off the top of her head. She debated on whether or not to ask him about them.
Zachary Matthews - October 10, 2011 09:04 PM (GMT)
Things were certainly going to get interesting, he would unfortunately have to make a call to his parents and inform them that he was married, and that he was expecting. Maybe he'd have a few drinks before dialing their number, take the edge off from hearing their judgmental voices. He knew though, once he did call, they'd want to meet his wife and once they met Aeryn, they'd want to meet the child. Maybe he could get away without telling them, telling them nothing and just waiting until they died. It could work, it would be malicious but it would work.
Besides, who was he really hurting by keeping things from them? What they didn't know wouldn't kill them and what they didn't know wouldn't kill Zach either. He was being a bad son for this and he was probably going to hell and you know what he was fine with that. But he also knew that it would probably look really bad if he didn't tell them and Aeryn found out. She'd probably wonder why he didn't tell them, probably wonder why he was keeping her and their child a secret. That could turn ugly real fast and he wasn't looking forward to that whole mess.
He was quiet for a few moments before gently squeezing her hand, "So, there is something you should know." He didn't want to talk about this, he didn't want to talk about his parents and his lack of talking to them about her. "It's nothing bad, but, I haven't exactly told my parents that I was married yet." He removed his hand and used it to scratch his head out of nerves. "They are probably going to want to meet you." He stared out the window for a few moments. "What about your parents?"
Aeryn Matthews - October 12, 2011 04:32 AM (GMT)
Zach's comment about there being something she should know made her gut clench. Usually words like that were followed by something horrid, like a cheating confession or having had a kid from a previous relationship or something. She automatically squeezed his hand back when he squeezed hers, though. As he went on, she relaxed again.
"Mine knew I'd signed up with the Vow, and they know I got married" she replied with a slight shrug. "I'd told them about the wedding, but they weren't able to make it."
A few months ago - before they'd gotten married - Aeryn would have gone right into suspicious mode at the part about his parents not knowing about him being married. Now she stopped herself from jumping to conclusions and paid attention to Zach's body language. "I take it you don't exactly have the best of relationships with them" she said, referring to his parents. Her words were more statement than question. "Your body language gives it away." Her tone and expression were gentle and understanding. There was no pity there, though. She gave his shoulder a light supportive squeeze and left it at that. She wasn't going to try to push him into talking about it. He'd talk if he wanted to, and pushing wouldn't do any good.
"So... as far as meeting them goes, do you want to invite them here?" she asked after a moment or two of silence. "That way you can throw them out if they try to cause too much trouble" she added only half jokingly, hoping to at least make him smile. If Zach's parents came to their house, they would be in Zach and Aeryn's territory. That might help to mitigate whatever potential problems there were... the key word being 'might'.
Zachary Matthews - October 13, 2011 08:38 PM (GMT)
Zach figured that if he would have told her before they got married, she might have been pissy, or maybe concerned with his decision to hide things from his parents. See, he wouldn't have had to hide things if his mother could hide things well but she would go ahead and tell her husband and then Zach would have to deal with his father and that was never a pleasant situation. He was never good enough for his father, he didn't think he'd ever be either. Lately though, he realized that he didn't need his father's approval, he was doing just fine without it.
"My parents are complicated, but I think it would be better if they came here instead of vice-versa." He touched the soft strands of her hair and kissed her cheek, "My Dad has been miserable since my older brother died." It was his half-brother, from his first marriage, by the time Zach was five years old, his brother had died from a car accident. "I never really knew him, but he was my father's favorite and apparently I'll never own up." His brother was only sixteen when he died but had managed the capture the heart of his father.
He gave up trying to be like his brother a long time ago, so he acted like he didn't exist. His father wouldn't care anyway, too blind to see that he had two sons and that one of them was dead. His mother loved him, he had no doubt about that, but he couldn't take being around that house anymore, he had to get away from that state and move on. A smirk formed on his face, "If they get too out of hand, we can always throw them out." He liked that idea, being in the power to throw his father out of his house.
"I'll give them a call later and see when they want to come down to visit." He kissed her and smiled, "But, if they even dare say anything against you, this will be their last visit, ever."
Aeryn Matthews - October 16, 2011 05:40 AM (GMT)
Aeryn's surprise at the mention of a brother was obvious. She couldn't recall him mentioning any siblings before. Then again, they hadn't talked about their families at all, really. Not until tonight. She smiled softly at Zach when he played with her hair a little, and didn't hesitate to kiss him back when he kissed her cheek.
She could understand being miserable after the loss of a child - of any family member, really. That didn't excuse playing favorites, though. Nothing did. "How the hell can a parent play favorites with their kids?" she said, her tone angry. It wasn't Zach she was angry at, though. No, she was angry at his father for being a huge dickface. It occurred to Aeryn that growing up like that might be why Zach had been such an ass the first time they met.
"I'm liking the idea of them coming here instead of the other way around, the more I think about it" she said. Yeah, that definitely had a lot of appeal. Especially after what he'd told her about his parents.
Aeryn kissed Zach back and let her fingers run through his hair, mussing it a little. His protectiveness was... unexpected, but sweet. "I have to say I'm of the same opinion on that. If either of them pulls that 'favoritism' bullshit on you, pregnant or not I'll kick their asses from one side of town to the other and back again." Aeryn's protective urges started surfacing a bit. Sure her husband was a bit of a dick at times and she wasn't shy about letting him know when he pissed her off, but she didn't treat him like crap even when she was pissed off. He was her dick, and she wasn't going to put up with someone treating him like crap.
Zachary Matthews - October 18, 2011 03:54 AM (GMT)
Maybe, he didn't like to mention ever having a sibling because of the jealousy issues that followed, why shouldn't he have been jealous, after all he would never own up to his deceased brother's shadow. There was a time when he didn't care, that he realized that this quest for affection was never going to come out with a positive outcome but then he'd go through another mood change and would want his father's attention. His family was more than difficult to deal with, they liked things the way they liked it and there was no room for compromising.
There was a hesitation before he spoke, "I don't want to do that to my children, I don't want to them to hate each other because of favoritism." He never really hated his brother, he hated his father, he never had bottled enough anger to hate his mother, but how could he? She was just living her life with a man she loved, she wasn't malicious but she had her flaws. She liked things the way she liked them and didn't hesitate to voice them. In her eyes, Zachary had failed when he didn't marry Evan, regardless of the way he treated her.
But, things were different now, different than when he was in high school and college, he had been thinking with the wrong type of anatomy and only wanted the chase. He was happy now, he was happy with his wife and honestly, he would trade things for the world. Things weren't perfect, but they were pleasant, and now he was going to embark on the next chapter of his life. He would be a father, and a much better father than his own, he would make his children feel like they had to compete for his attention, he'd divide it equally.
He smirked, the image of his red haired wife physically assaulting his family was amusing, especially with the growing child in her womb, but it would be unnecessary, he wouldn't let things get that far, he wouldn't let his parents hurt her in any way. "I want to be a good father, Aeryn. I don't want to half ass it either, I want to be a damn good father." This moment was nice, it felt safe, it felt right. And that scared him, because if he felt like this now, it wouldn't be long until the L word came into play.
"I bet our child is going to be a ginger, just like you." He said playfully, a grin on his face as he ruffled up her red strands, it would be a test to see which hair color was more dominant, blonde or red, that would be interesting.
Aeryn Matthews - October 18, 2011 04:25 PM (GMT)
Zach's concerns about ending up like his father and playing favorites tugged at Aeryn's heart a bit. It was understandable that he'd be afraid of that happening. A lot of people with less than perfect parents feared becoming their parents, and feared repeating their mistakes. Aeryn drew her husband into a brief but tight hug for several long moments. She pulled back just enough to be able to look him in the eye.
"You'll do just fine, Zach. We'll both be sort of winging it with this baby, so we're bound to do a few things... unconventionally. But you don't have to worry about turning out like your father or playing favorites. I'd be more worried if you didn't have any concerns over ending up that way" she said, her tone and expression serious. "Besides, you know I won't hesitate to call you on it if you start acting that way" she added, only half teasingly. Yeah, she'd definitely call him on such behavior, but she was also trying to get Zach to smile again.
"Oh, I certainly hope so" she replied with a light chuckle. "There aren't enough gingers in the world." She nudged him gently in play and let her hand rest on his chest, her fingers caressing him lightly through the fabric of his shirt. Aeryn knew with brunettes versus lighter haired people, the genes for the darker colors of brown and black tended to be the dominant ones. She didn't know much about what was dominant and recessive in lighter colors like red and blond. Aeryn knew she wouldn't much care either way - she just wanted to have a healthy baby.
Zachary Matthews - October 21, 2011 03:17 AM (GMT)
As cheesy as it sounded, there was always something about Aeryn that made Zach want to be a good person, and most of the people who knew Zach didn’t like to believe he could have that many redeeming qualities within himself. It was almost unbelievable how time was changing him, it was changing him for the better and he was alright with that. He didn’t want to be his father’s shadow, and he didn’t want to raise a child who felt under loved while the other felt over loved. He also had a thing against having an odd amount of children, to defeat the risk of one getting less attention than the other two or however many children they had.
He was okay with one, and even if he wasn’t, he better be because before he knew it, she would end up being twenty-weeks underway and at the point, it was game time. There was no sense in being afraid or worrying because she was already pregnant, and they are moving straight ahead. Still, her words comforted him, he was still in the in between of not knowing if he really liked her or possibly… he didn’t want to go down that road yet. ”Oh, Aeryn… what would I do without you? Perhaps a few months ago, he would have meant it as sarcastic, but he had clung to her, always needing someone to just be there for him, and he found that in his wife.
He chuckled, he had to, it wasn’t at her, or the child it was at an inside joke that he remembered from a few years back, one of his friends at University had told him that because of all his havoc, he would wind up being the father to a handful of gingers and sure enough he had married a red-head and now they were having one on the way. He’d have to smack that guy upside the head for this. ”We really have to decorate this house, it’s looking bare.” He hadn’t noticed it until he started looking around, sure they had the basics, but within the rush of marriage and now the news of the baby, they had yet to actually personalize their house.
Aeryn Matthews - October 22, 2011 06:30 AM (GMT)
"Possibly go insane, or drive everyone else there" Aeryn replied, her tone mingled affection and teasing. It was weird for her to feel that way, but she didn't mind the hint of clinginess Zach sometimes displayed. It was nothing truly overt, but she picked up on it just the same - thanks in part to having been taught body language and such, and in part to familiarity with her husband's mannerisms. She had to admit she rather liked the fact he didn't expect her to turn to him for every little thing, and be totally dependent on him. Aeryn did have her moments where she too needed some support though, and for that she turned to Zach... though she wasn't any more overt about it than he was. Would that change later? Who knew?
His comment about decorating made her take a look around. "Huh. I guess we should." She hadn't really paid much attention before. "You ought to know by now though that I'm no Martha Stewart" she added. Decorating - and other 'girly' things - were things she was unfamiliar with. But then so was the whole 'being a mother' thing, and she was going to have to learn how to do that, so why not decorating too. Besides, it could be fun. Maybe. There was potential there, she supposed. "You have anything particular in mind?" she asked.
Zachary Matthews - October 25, 2011 02:26 AM (GMT)
It seemed simple, planning the details for decorating their house but he soon realized that they had two different ideas for decorating and when snags like that happened, it was difficult to just get things over and done with. So, they spent the day browsing online websites, picking out pieces of furniture until piece by piece they slowly started to form a house. First, they would get the house in order, make sure it didn't look so empty and vacant. Then, they could get to working on the nursery when Aeryn started becoming closer to her due date.
They still had time, they still would have to figure out the color scheme because there was no way he would allow pink if he was having a boy, or some boyish color for a little color. Call him stereotypical, call him whatever but unless his daughter or his son told him they wanted to be different, they were getting the normal. But, truth be told, he would be just happy if they turned out normal and healthy and without anything seriously wrong with them. If they had webbed feet, that may serve to be a problem, something that could be fixed but still a problem.
In the meantime, he called his parents later that night, announcing his marriage and much to his assumption, they wanted to meet his bride. As if that wasn't huge news within itself, he stubbornly admitted that they would be grandparents and that was the final straw in their planned visit. Once going over details, finally they decided on a date, right before the holidays, sometime in the beginning of November and that just left Zach to plan for his parents unfortunate arrival and the preparation for his future child, which meant that soon he'd be finding out the gender.