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[Raziel Joshua Jefferson]

Raziel was woken up by the sound of chirping birds and sunlight streaming through the curtains of the window. He reached an arm over to where Emilia would be, only to feel the spot empty, but warm. He lifted his face off the pillow and looked to the empty area next to him. He wondered where she went; it wasn't like her to be out of bed before he was -- she usually waited until he was awake at least before leaving the warmth of bed. Then it clicked in his mind that she had family matters to attend to. He hoped that whatever matters she had to take care of only involved her coming into contact with her father. Razz didn't like her mother. The woman was absolutely dreadful. She wasn't exactly his favorite person and the feeling was mutual. He rolled out of bed, landing on the floor and went to pull on a pair of sweats and a t-shirt. Razz walked to the living room, flipping on the television and heading to the living room to grab a bowl of cereal. The apartment felt empty and lonely. He had gotten so used to having Emilia around that when she wasn't, it just felt weird for her to not be around. She practically lived at the apartment with him.

He lounged on the couch, watching some cartoons since the television had been left on a kids channel since his siblings' last visit. He was seriously contemplating going back to bed when he heard a knock on the door. Who would be knocking on his door? He made his parents promise to call the next time they wanted to drop the twins off at his place and Emmi had a copy of the key. He went to look through the peep hole to see who was there. He almost dropped his bowl of cereal when he saw who was at the door. Razz opened it to reveal his best friend, Kendall. "Hiya, Kenni, what's up?" he asked, taking another bite if cereal.

OOC: Lazy morning outfit

[Kendall Marie Davis-Washington]

Kendall was obviously emotional. She was pregnant! luckily being a washington she didnt show much. she was worried that the baby was going to be too small but the doctors say that the baby is fine. She shows but she doesnt look like those normal pregnant women that look like they're about to pop. Kendall felt like she had been pregnant forever. Things were all roller coaster-y with Caelan. They have little fights all the time. maybe she was too sensitive about the pregnancy or maybe it was just them. She really loves him but she hates fighting with him.

This particular fight was about the baby's room. Kendall hated it. not the way it looked or that caelan did it all himself but the fact that Caelan was super excited about the baby. Kendall didnt want it. she felt weird knowing there was a person inside. it made her feel bad because she didnt want the baby. she didnt want to be a mother. She was too young. Caelan on the other hand was excited. he couldnt wait to be a father. and once he graduated from the academy he could become king and Kendall would be queen with a little prince or princess. Everything was moving too fast for Kendall. Kendall had sympathy for Caelan and she was nice and passive about everything because it made him happy. He was on the verge of a mental break down after the rape and stuff. She couldnt deny him anything. but the further along with the pregnancy she goes the more she cant hold back her frustration.

Kendall left the Korean weekend house with tears down her face. she wiped them away but her face was still wet from them. She cant handle the stress anymore. She drove herself to get away. at first she planned on going to her dorm room at the college but she found herself in the direction of Razz's house. She really needed her best friend right now. before she got out of the car she took a couple of deep breaths before she got out. she dried to make it look like she wasnt crying as she walked to Razz's door. She knocked and waited for him to answer.

she smiled at the sight of him in his sweat pants. just seeing him made her want to laugh, which was a huge improvement. "Hi... I need an escape." she said knowing that he knows about the little arguments with Caelan and the stress.


Imagine that the shirt is tucked in. Tumblr inspired~

[Raziel Joshua Jefferson]

Razz just had the confused face of a puppy dog on when Kendall said she needed an escape. He could be rather slow in the mornings. Escape from what? He had to think from a moment before it clicked in his mind that it probably had something to do with her being pregnant and her Caelan. He could tell that she was beyond frustrated. He could tell that she had been crying in her car. They were best friends. It was kind of his job to be able to tell when she was feeling like crap. He knew that she was not ready to be a mother. Growing up she showed little to no signs of really wanting kids. Caelan wanted the baby, though, and he must have been through some serious shit if Kendall was willing to give one to him. Razz knew she loved Caelan, but she was still kind of getting used to even being a royal. She grew up a commoner, like him. Commoners didn't exactly have silver spoons in their mouths as they grew up. And then she found out she was actually a princess and was just kind of hurled into a life far different than what she had known. It made him sad to think that his best friend was under so much stress.

"Well then welcome to paradise!" he exclaimed joyfully, hoping that it would cheer her up even a bit. " I am your host Raziel Joshua Jefferson, or Razz for short." He lead her inside and sat her down on the couch, holding up one finger that signaled he would be back in a moment with a wink. He quickly ran into the kitchen, dropping his bowl of cereal in the sink and grabbing a carton of ice cream with two spoons; it was what one of them always did when the other was upset. He returned to the living room and plopped down on the couch next to her. He handed her one of the spoons and opened up the carton, scooting closer to her so it would be easier for her to have some also.

Razz turned off the television and gently pulled her head onto his shoulder. This was also one of the little things they had done to cheer each other up and show their support as they grew up. "But in all seriousness, what did you guys fight about this time? Is he already picking out baby names or something?" he asked.

[Kendall Marie Davis-Washington]

Kendall and Razz became like brother and sister over the years. They were inseparable when they were younger and even now they stayed in touch every day. The ran to the other when they were upset and was super supportive when they were upset. Kendall really loved Razz as a brother. Part of her wished that she could be a little closer to the other Washingtons but they were busy with their owns lives. Being a royal was hard work even though it didnt seem like it. She didnt mind all that much because she was happy with her non-royal friends. She honestly sort of hated being a royal. she was constantly watched and judged for everything and if she did something wrong it reflected on the entire Washington family.

She shook her head at his ridiculous remark and walked inside heading straight for his couch. She knew what he was getting. The thing she really needed; ice cream. suddenly the pregnant-cravings were kicking in and she really wanted some ice cream. when he got back she scooted close to him like a little kid would do with their father or older sibling. That's what Razz was to her; and Older brother. She grabbed the ice cream, "My ankles have swollen. Do you know how hard it is to walk in heels without swollen ankles?! and I have to wear them... you know royal appearance and everything..."She rolled her eyes. She avoided the question that he asked. she hated to admit that she had another fight with Caelan. it sucked. she felt like one of those boyfriend obsessed girls that is in complete denial. "the doctors keep saying that the baby is fine but I'm pretty sure its going to be like freakishly small. It'll probably look like a little Asian midget or something." she put her hand on her stomach where she felt the baby move slightly. she was about six months pregnant but she only looked like she was three months. she was glad that she wasnt huge but she was worried that it was so small.

[Raziel Joshua Jefferson]

Razz rolled his eyes at her evasiveness. He let it slide for now, but would come back to the topic later. He had slight feelings for her, a long time ago, but those feelings passed and he had come to realize that they both friend-zoned each other into sibling land. They had always been extremely close. He was sure that most of his fondest childhood memories had her in them. He knew that she avoided a topic like the plague when she didn't want to talk about it, but she would tell him all the problems later on. It was just how she worked. He knew he couldn't rush those kinds of subjects with her. He laughed at her comment about how she thought the baby was going to look like. He opened his mouth to comment on how that was just a bit cruel, but another round of laughs came out instead. That was an exaggeration, of course; he had seen Caelan around a couple times before. He wasn't exactly what Razz would've called small. Razz had to admit, he didn't particularly like him. Not because he was a bad guy or anything, but because of the stress he didn't see that he was putting Kendall under. Razz never liked it when anyone did anything that upset any of the women he cared about. Kendall was among the four women he would do just about anything for. She was tied with his mother and his younger sister. The only woman that beat them all out was Emilia. His Emmi.

He took a bite of ice cream, savoring the taste before swallowing. "I honestly don't care what your kid looks like as long as I get to be it's god father and teach it how to play guitar," he joked. "And as for the show issue, I suggest you argue for flats at least. I don't want you breaking an ankle just because you had to keep up some bull crap 'royal image' while having a bun in the oven."

[Kendall Marie Davis-Washington]

Kendall laughed. somehow Razz just always made her feel better. no matter what. It was great to have someone like that. She missed the days where they would just hang out and babysit for hours and the long sleepovers. She slept at his house for a week once when they were kids. They had tons of fun. No stress. no boyfriend/girlfriend drama. no responsibilities. but now everything was about being proper and doing well in college. It was really getting to Kendall and she wished hard for it all to just go away.

she took a giant spoonful of ice cream getting a shudder as the coldness was too much. she pouted like a little kid. for some reason she hated that saying; a bun in the oven. It sort of made her feel like a tool. or like way back in the day when girls were just around to procreate. She sighed. she was not going to get out of talking about the real issue so she figured she might as well just get it over with.

it was quite for a minute as they sat close on the couch eating ice cream. she felt colder and colder with each bite. "He made the baby room. all by himself." she avoided eye contact with Razz. he was the only person that knew she didnt really want the baby and that she was only doing it for Caelan's benefit. she stared down at the ice cream. "It was pretty and everything but..... it was too much." she replayed the fight in her head. there wasnt much yelling in that fight. Kendall just walked out of the baby room and left. Caelan tried tried to stop her but she just mumbled something about wanting to be a commoner again and went to Razz's house. She didnt know why she was so upset about it. the baby room was perfect. it wasnt gender specific and it was great that Caelan had done it himself but she didnt understand why he was so happy about it. he was younger than she was. heck he was still in high school and he was going to be a father. why was he so freaking happy?!

OOC: This is the baby room that Nicky and I agreed on. :3

[Emilia Mira Backstrom]

Emilia wasn't particularly having the best day, she had a lot of stresses at school and was mentally and physically exhausted. Her teachers were getting on her case for sleeping through class, and for not being academically gifted. Emilia was a little of a slow learner, it wasn't her fault that they taught everything so quickly and made it so hard to learn this stupid material. Education for the women of a royal family wasn't exactly what her parents valued. They would be fine if she went to college, but if Emilia dropped out of school and got pregnant, her parents would throw a party. Everything was about babies and bullshit. Emilia didn't want to deal with it anymore, she wasn't going to. Ever since the problem at the bar, Razz had been more cautious, and she wanted to fix that more than anything else. That's all she could think about, why she was zoning out all day in class. She wanted to make it right. Emilia thought of Akuti, and wondered where she was and what she was doing. They hadn't really talked since the bar incident either, and Emilia had wondered if she was avoiding her. Emilia had too much drama going on in her life, and it all needed to stop. She was tired of her parents and of the people around her. She just wanted to be home, curled up on the couch with Razz watching whatever silly cartoons he liked and not talking about the rush to have children.

She told her driver to go straight to Razz's house, she didn't want to go home, not today. Emilia practically lived with Razz anyways, but she did go home every once in a while to check on the family and to pick up things before leaving to go to Razz's place. It wasn't really home anymore though, wherever Razz was, that was home. Pulling her keys out of her bag, Emilia unlocked the door as she opened it, stuffing the key back into her bag. She was use to just letting herself in now, Razz gave her a copy of the key. She heard a woman's voice, and walked into the living room to see Razz sitting on the couch with some blonde, his arms wrapped around her. Emilia's heart was pounding slightly, and when they looked up to see her, Emilia immediately felt like she was interrupting something. " Sorry for interrupting, I'll leave you two alone." Emilia said, not hesitating to walk out of the house. Her head was spinning, and she felt sick to her stomach. Emilia was possibly assuming the worst, but it was a little hard not to. Not only was Emilia a little territorial, the way Razz had his arm around her... It made her uneasy. She couldn't figure out what was going on, and Emilia was scared to think that Razz would ever cheat on her.

[Raziel Joshua Jefferson]

Razz felt bad about Kendall being all stressed out about the baby issue. He didn't see how it was not obvious that she didn't want the baby. Then again, they had known each other for practically their entire lives. Razz knew her better than anyone. He held her close to him as she shuddered and told what was her worries. He would most definitely have to have a talk with Caelan one of these days. His over exuberance over being a father was just a bit ridiculous. And he didn't like how upset Kendall was about the entire situation. With how they were so easily able to feel each others' emotions, they may as well have been fraternal twins. They were close enough. With the stresses that she was subjected to, whenever they talked he often wished that she was a commoner again. It was funny in its own way. Before having a best friend and a girlfriend who were both royals, he thought they had it easy. They had more money than they could wish for and people to do work for them. It seemed like they never had to lift a finger. And then he really leaned what came with being a royal. It didn't seem worth it. He would much rather be a commoner than a royal. At least as a commoner you had the freedom to choose your own path in life. "I don't get it, Kenni. That boy is younger than you and he's over-joyed at the idea of being a father. What's up with tha--" his sentence was cut short by Emilia walking in and then leaving again.

It hadn't occurred to Razz that him and Kendall may have looked like a couple with the way they were hanging out on the couch. Or that she and Emilia hadn't been properly introduced yet. "Shit, that was my girlfriend," he said, removing himself and getting up from the couch. "I'll be right back" he told her as he ran out the door to get Emilia. That was just perfect. He hadn't expected her to be home so soon, nor had he been expecting Kendall to show up. This was just not his day. He saw Emilia heading to the sidewalk, and sprinted after her. "Emmi, wait!" he called. He caught up to her, grabbing her by the arm and pulling her into a hug. "It's not what it looks like, I swear." He knew she probably wouldn't believe him, so he picked her up and carried her back to the apartment, despite her slight struggling. Or it felt slight to him. Razz was strong. He gently set her back down on her feet as he closed the door. "Emmi, meet Kendall. My best friend for as long as I can remember, and who may as well be my sister" -- he made sure to put extra emphasis on the sister part -- "Kenni, this is my girlfriend and the woman I plan on spending the rest of my life with, Emilia." This wasn't exactly how he planned on introducing them.

[Kendall Marie Davis-Washington]

Kendall was snugged in her non-brother brother's arms. It was practically the only place that she actually felt comfortable in lately... maybe it was the pregnancy and her inability to be comfortable. the baby was small enough she didnt need to squish it by sleeping on her stomach. She hated being pregnant! it was so troubling. It was like Razz was saying the words straight from her mind! they were really good together in that way. there was no secrets between them because one always knew what the other was thinking. Kendall nearly jumped off the couch when she heard Emilia come in.

She nodded as Razz got up and chased after her. She knew that they way they were sitting may have looked more than what it was. she sat up on the couch with good posture. she tried so hard to make a habit of sitting more like a royal but for some reason she always forgot around Razz. Probably because she was use to being a normal commoner around him. she drummed on her knee with her fingertips. She hoped that she didnt ruin anything for them. That would probably only add on to her stress. Add to the list of people she's screwed up with just being around them.

When Razz and Emilia walked back in the room Kendall stood up, politely ready to greet her and try to seem as sisterly to Razz as possible. "Hello. Sorry for the scare." she said sort of flinching. "Um.... Yes. Razz and I might as well be brother and sister... I just needed some comfort. But i can totally go. I'm all good now... no problem at all." she smiled her usual bright and friendly smile.

[Emilia Mira Backstrom]

Emilia was leaving, she was not staying here to watch him cuddle up with some other girl. Her pace was quick as she walked away from the house, ignoring him calling after her. Emilia turned around when he grabbed her arm, trying to pull away. " I don't want to hear it! Let go of me!" Emilia cried, her voice a little more high pitch than usual. That was something that only Razz knew, because Emilia rarely got angry and she was also extremely embarrassed about it. Emilia attempted to shove him away as he hugged her tightly, she didn't want to hear it. Not right now, she was not happy at all right now. She just wanted to go home and curl under the blankets and stay there. Emilia pushed at Razz as he picked her up," Put me down!" Emilia demanded, kicking her feet as she struggled to break free. Razz was stronger than her by a lot, and though she knew there was absolutely no way she was going to break free from his grip, she wasn't going to be carried without a fight. Emilia was put down and introduced to the girl, Kendall. Running her fingers through her hair, Emilia took a deep breath. " No, you don't have to leave," Emilia said a little more softly than she was talking before," Can you give us a moment? Feel free to relax and watch tv or something, we'll just be a moment." Emilia said, grabbing Razz by the arm and pulling him into the bedroom, closing the room slightly.

" Why didn't you tell me about her sooner?" Emilia asked, trying not to raise her voice," This girl is practically your sister, and you don't even bother bringing her up? Why would you be-" Emilia paused, looking at his expression. Her heart almost stopped at that moment. " You use to like her," Emilia muttered, her eyes filling with angry tears. " You jerk! I thought we were past the point of keeping secrets, Raziel! I told you about every guy I had an emotional attachment to, and the one girl of your past you did, you didn't even bring up?!" Emilia yelled, leaning against a wall to attempt to remain standing, wiping away the tears. Emilia wasn't thinking clearly, she was so stressed and tired she just wanted this all to end. " Why didn't you even bother telling me? Why did you keep her a secret like she still means something to you?" Emilia asked, her voice soft like a whimper. She couldn't stop thinking about them kissing. Emilia knew that there was probably nothing there, but the idea of him loving her at some point was eating her inside. She couldn't stop thinking of him kissing her, picking her up and putting her down on the bed. The image in her head was killing her.

OOC: I forgot Her Outfit

[Raziel Joshua Jefferson]

Razz let Emilia bring him into the room. This could not be good. He looked away as she asked him why he never brought up Kendall. He knew why he never did. He was afraid of this. Afraid of ever having to have her find out that he used to have feelings for her. That was a long time ago -- long before he met Emilia. Back when the only female he felt comfortable around that wasn't his mother or his sister was Kendall. He thought he had feelings for her in that way. He ended up convincing himself so much that he ended up having emotions of some sort for her. That showed on his face enough that Emilia was able to tell. He let her yell, knowing that she was right. He should've brought up Kendall at some point. He should've told Emilia about her. It was just that the timing never seemed right. They were almost always dealing with something bigger and more important than him bringing up an old friend from the past. That's all that she was now anyways. He didn't want Kendall in that way. Those emotions were extremely short-lived. Kendall was just his best friend now. His sister. Nothing more. And would never be more. It broke his heart to think that Emilia actually thought Kendall meant something more to him. The look on her face killed her.

He leaned forward and placed both hands on Emilia's cheeks. Emmi," he said softly, trying to look her in the eye. "Honey, look at me, please," he begged. He couldn't stand the heart broken look she wore. It hurt to know that he put that look on there. He pulled her into his arms. buried his face in her hair, next to her ear. "Emilia Backstrom, you are my present and my future. I want to be with you and only you. Kendall means nothing like that to me anymore. She is practically my sister. You're the woman I love, and the only woman I plan on loving for as long as you'll have me," he told her, placing a kiss on her temple. "So please. Please believe me when I say that there's nothing between us," he grovelled.

[Emilia Mira Backstrom]

Emilia couldn't get the tears to stop, no matter how angry and hurt she was the tears were proof to how broken up about it she was. She was so stressed and exhausted, too much was happening at once, and she was cracking under the pressure. Emilia felt so betrayed by him, and though she knew she made mistakes in the past, she had never hidden anything from him. Razz knew about Russell, he knew about the past guys who she could actually remember. She told him about her first love. Emilia wiped away the tears with her wrist, though it helped very little. Her eyes looked away when Razz gently put his hands on her face, she couldn't look in the eye. She felt herself crumbling into pieces. The scene in her head just continued to play in her head, and ate at her conscience. Emilia was a fragile girl, she knew this. She knew that she couldn't handle not being the only girl. She had a problem with it since her first love, Jacob, when she walked in on him with another girl. Emilia didn't want to think about it. Even with Russell, who was disgusting, he was so infatuated with her, she was the only one. Emilia couldn't help herself, it was just how she was. Emilia couldn't stop thinking about it. Her fingers running through his hair, smiling as they kiss. His hands on her waist, his lips on her neck. It was festering like a virus in her mind.

" I just can't stop thinking about you two together," Emilia cried, hugging herself tightly as she sobbed. " I can't stop thinking about you looking at her like that, wanting her, it just tortures me," She said, her legs giving out as she slid to the floor, Razz sitting in front of her as he continued to hold her tightly," Why didn't you tell me?" Emilia asked again, her voice hoarse," You knew. You knew that this was- Why didn't you tell me? Why?" She continued to ask, the lump in her throat making it hard to speak. The scene continued to play in her head like a broken tape.

[Raziel Joshua Jefferson]

Razz hurt Emilia. He did the one thing he swore he would never do. It made him feel terrible. He hurt her. His Emmi. He couldn't believe he did it.He hurt the woman that meant the most to him. The one who would be the most devastating to lose. He was horrible. She opened up to him about everything -- every past boyfriend, every heartbreak, everything that she could never and would never tell anyone else. He betrayed her trust by not telling her about the only other girl he ever had real feelings for, no matter how short lived those feelings were, even if now he only saw her as his sister. Even when he did have those feelings for Kendall, it wasn't as if he could ever picture them having any kind of future together other than that of being still close as friends when they got older. He could never picture himself marrying her, having kids together, or being that old married couple sitting on their front porch, watching their grandchildren play in the front yard. He never imagined any of those things when he imagined anything concerning a future with her. Only with Emilia did he want that kind of future with. When he got married, he wanted her to be the one walking down the aisle in a white dress. He wanted her to be the one to give him his first child. He wanted her to be the one he grew old with and watch his grand kids play in their front yard with. He only wanted her. And would only ever want her.

"I never brought it up because it doesn't matter now," he said earnestly. "Emmi, even when I did have feelings for her, I could never picture my self marrying, having kids with, or growing old with her. I only imagine that life with you." Razz didn't expect her to exactly trust him after this. In fact, he was counting on having to rebuild her trust in him after all this. "I never brought it up because I can never think of anything else but how happy I am when I'm with you. Nothing else matters to me when it's just me and you."