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[Maeve Lily Backstrom]

It was near one in the morning and she was outside in the grass barefoot. A giggle slipping past her lips as she spread her arms out at her sides. Mimicing the motion of flying like a child might do as she moved with a dancers grace. Closing her eyes and letting long blonde locks bounce over her shoulders. Her blue dress swayed about her knees as her white leather jacket draped about her, hiding just how thin she truly was.

A smile curved soft rose hued lips upward as she continued to dance to the music that only played in her mind. Her world was filled with an odd innocence despite the fact that she herself wasn't entirely so. She had been to the club earlier tonight and had-had simply two drinks. That alone was enough to get her tipsy due to the fact she never really ate anything.

More giggles left her as she began to spin about in a circle now, opening her eyes to look up at the stars. Everything spun and she just kept right on until she swayed, as the dizziness came. A few awkward steps and then she let herself collapse in the soft grass. She reached into the pocket of her jacket and pulled out a little packet. She wasn't sure what it was. She'd been given it by one of the guys she usually bought from at the club. All she could remember was it was supposed to be something new.

"Bottoms up." She opened the small bag and tilted her head back, letting both the pills fall into her mouth. There was a tart bitterness to them and she made a slight face as she swallowed them. She then blew the baggie away, watching as the breeze carried it off. She bit down on her lower lip, tilting her head to watch it, until it was carried out of view. A sigh left her as she looked about once more. No one else was about. She didn't want to be alone. Maybe she could call Augusta. Now where was her phone? She started to search her jacket pockets but wasn't able to find it. A frown settled on her features at that. How was she supposed to get in touch with Auggie now?

Maybe she could make it back to the club before it closed. They'd hold it if she left it surely. She pushed herself up, swaying again on her feet before taking a moment to steady herself. Running a hand through her hair she started down the sidewalk.

[Augusta Felix Backstrom]

Felix, commonly called Augusta by his family, wasn't normally out late by himself. Currently his wonderful lover Luke Mubarak usually kept him inside most of the time. Sure he was possessive, but Felix enjoyed it. Luke happened to be the only man, seemingly, on this whole planet, that would pleasure him like he truly wanted. He sighed softly and ran a hand over his bangs, making sure they stayed in place. He slipped his hands into the pockets of his leather jacket and sighed. He doesn't think that he's seen much of his family recently. Though, being the 'black sheep' didn't help. It didn't help that at family dinner he smoked weed and called his mother an ungrateful whore. He was also the only person in their family (including their parents and grand-parent) that had black hair, jet black hair. The rest of his family was blond or dirty blond and Felix was the ONLY one with black hair. Most of the country probably though he was a bastard son anyway. He didn't care that much. It also didn't help that he was sort of crazy.

Felix talked to Eve all the time, mostly be phone call and sometimes they saw each other out in school (when Felix decided to go) and sometimes out at clubs. But recently he's been cooped up with the glorious Egyptian prince that he hasn't seen much of anyone lately. It might have been the fact that he was afraid of people trying to sleep with Luke when Felix wasn't paying attention. Or maybe the fact that Felix was a sex addict and Luke was the only one who could handle Felix on a good day. He was quite the needy boy.

Tonight though, Felix had been out clubbing with some girls that were friends. He was tired, but still pretty tipsy. But he was heading back to his dorm, he didn't feel like calling a limo just to drive him to Luke's house. Plus he was too tired to do anything tonight, not with Luke at least. Luke always wore him out and left bruises and cuts and bite-marks and those things get annoying to cover-up all the time. Felix walked down the sidewalk and then saw someone in a white jacket, it wasn't till he got closer that he realized who it was. " Eve!" he said happily and grabbed her in a hug. Felix was short, but still an inch taller than Eve and weighed a considerable amount more. He noticed her getting thinner everyday, but Eve never asked about his masochism or nymphomania so he never got into any of her business. " I've missed you, I haven't talked to you in almost two weeks!" he said and sat her back on the ground. He smiled softly and tipped his head to the side, not intentionally showing off three dark bruises and bite marks on his neck. Felix wrapped an arm around Eve's shoulder and walked with her. " How's the life of my big sister lately?" he asked, the moon reflecting off his unbelievably bright blue eyes.

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[Maeve Lily Backstrom]

"Eve!" She looked up at the calling of her name just as she was pulled into the hug by her younger brother. "Auggie!" A delighted little squeal leaving her as she returned the hug as strong as she could really muster a bright smile on her face that at least now she didn't have to be alone. "I've missed you, I haven't talked to you in almost two weeks!" She settled gently against him. Did she notice the bruises and bite marks when he tilted his neck? She did. She would always look out for him but he never brought up that he was being hurt by anyone so she never really pressed the issue. Then again she wasn't always all there at times and definately not always sober.

She settled into his embrace as his arm went over her shoulders instead of about her waist. He knew more often than not she shied away from people touching her at her waist. Mostly because in her head she didn't see herself as thin, bordering on near starvation. There was always something else to improve on everytime she looked in the mirror. "How's the life of my big sister lately?"

A soft little giggle was given up to him as the wind blew a strand of blond hair across her face. "I'm shiny." Her own version of saying that she was fine. Then again she usually always said that no matter what. "Better now that you're here." She leaned her head against his arm and sighed softly. "Mum and Dad sent me word. They're arranging a marriage for me. I imagine in a few weeks I'll find out just who it is." Big brown eyes staring off to the side now. Feeling more than a bit lightheaded from the amount of drugs she'd just injested. Not to mention injested on an empty stomach that only had alochol in it.

"Oh, Wow." She was looking about now, an almost wonder on her face now as another giggle left her. Colors seemed to be glowing as the world swayed and spun a little. "It's all so pretty." Looks back over to him, pupils dialating, the tell-tale sign that she'd taken something. Nothing new there really. "What's been keeping my Auggie-Cake so busy lately?" It was funny to her that she called him that sometimes, maybe because it was a joke to herself because she hated food and she really hated eating, but she loved Augusta to pieces.

Oh it felt like she was moving through water. Each movement seemed slower than it really was but she bit down on her lower lip as she stared at him. "You weren't chased by the smurfs or Gargamel were you?" Yeah sometimes random things came out that had no rhyme or reason but in her head they made sense. Fingers lifting up to lightly brush against his neck carefully. "I'll beat them up." And this was just the tip of the iceberg as the drugs spread through her system.

[Augusta Felix Backstrom]

Felix had always known about Eve's tendency not to eat. He knew better than to believe any of her lies about her weight. Though he figured that if she didn't pry into his buisness, he didn't have any right to get into hers. He was afraid she was going to die though. He didn't want that. She was the only family he really had. Nobody else in their family even gave him the time of day, especially not their parents. Felix nodded lightly when she said she was shiny and that she was going to figure out her arranged marriage soon. he wasn't sure if he should be happy for her or not. He was sure that Crown Prince Luke would steal him away from Sweden and make him live in Egypt. Luke was so possessive, it made Felix's skin crawl in such a good way.

It wasn't hard for Felix to tell Eve was high, super-high. Not like that was new. His partying and drinking and drug-habit came from her. She introduced him to the scene and then got him addicted. Though Luke kept him from partying too much. When she mentioned that nickname he grinned and chuckled lightly. " A certain boy... well, man. He's fairly needy if you know what I mean. He keeps me fairly busy." he replied and sighed. Eve was way to drugged to let her go to a club where he'd lose track of her. e was already tipsy himself. So instead of heading down one sidewalk to the clubs he turned to the left and walked towards his dorm. He never used his dorm and never roomed with anyone so it'd be a safe place for Eve to crash. He didn't trust anyone, especially men, around his sister. She may be older but Felix is a cold-hearted protective little bastard. If he saw one guy lay a hand on her he'd cut it off.

He looked down at her when she mentioned smurfs, he lifted one brown and sighed, " I have no idea what you're talking about." He pulled her closer and sighed. He flinched when she touched his neck. he looked back over at her as they got into the dorms and went to the stairs. He stopped in front of the stairs and rested his hands on each side of Eve's face. " You don't need to beat anyone up. It's... it's sort of complicated how I get all those marks all the time..." he sighed, " I'm not sure you'd understand right now..."

[Maeve Lily Backstrom]

"A certain boy... well, man. He's fairly needy if you know what I mean. He keeps me fairly busy." Her brother told her. She couldn't help the giggles that erupted past her lips. Oh she knew just what he meant by those words. Naughty, naughty little brother, she hummed in her own head. But really what did it matter if he was off rolling in the sheets with some guy? Long as Auggie was happy she would be happy for him too. He was one of the few good parts of her world, reguardless of if she was wasted or sober. Though the true sober bits seemed to come less and less often these days now.

She let him lead her wherever he wanted to take her. She trusted him more than she trusted anyone else really. She'd protect him in anyway she could. She did help raise him and her little sister after all, even if she wasn't as close with her as she was with Augusta. She poked her lower lip out in a pout when he flinched to the touch she'd given his neck. She hadn't meant to hurt him and she withdrew her hand. She never really meant to be so addled in the head, she just was. She even somewhat pitied the man that she was going to be married off to. Though it had more to do with her own low self image than anything else. She hoped that whoever that guy was wouldn't dislike her too terribly much.

Though her thoughts were haulted when she was stopped outside the dorms by her brother and she was pulled closer. She let a little smile slide into place, one that she used for their parents more often than not. Real smiles came every so often and Augusta had been privy to see a handful of them but none had crossed her face in the last several months for reasons unknown. She felt his warm hands press against her cheeks and brown eyes settled onto his blue ones as a breeze blew loose strands of blonde hair over her shoulders. "You don't need to beat anyone up. It's... it's sort of complicated how I get all those marks all the time.... I'm not sure you'd understand right now..."

She reached a hand up and rested it over one of his for a moment or two. "You don't have to tell me..." Because they both had secrets. She just wanted to know he was safe and if he said he was, she'd believe him. She turned and spun from the embrace, head spinning and she swayed on her feet but thankfully didn't fall. "The grass is growing... can you hear it?" And over she went, one, two three, four paces before sinking down onto the lawn, laying on it on her stomach, staring at it. "Sometimes I wonder if they have little green people down in there, endlessly working. And then what do we do... ruin it all we do."

A hand reached out and touched a blade of grass, wiggling it. "Hello little green people. Are you awake tonight?" A giggle left her as she smiled at the grass and then pulled her arm back in close so she could rest her cheek on it. A long pause rising up before her next question came. "Do you think it would have made a difference...?" She crossed her ankles in the grass, marveling at the feeling of the coolness against her skin. "If they cared... like really cared." Of course she was more or less talking about their parents. She couldn't help but wonder sometimes herself if it would have.

"Oh look..." Changing the subject again, hand raised and pointing off to what was occupied by empty space. No telling just what she was seeing but it made her smile and a giggle left her before she bit down onto her lower lip. "They make the world so spinny Auggie." She closed her eyes as her head swayed slightly with dizziness.

[Augusta Felix Backstrom]

"You don't have to tell me..."

Felix looked at Eve with a slight frown as she said this. He watched as Eve went out into the grass and started talking nonsense. he wish he was more wasted, then maybe her rambling would make sense. Eve needed a husband who would be good for her. She needed a man who would get her in line, force her to face her problems and stop being an addict. Felix sighed and watched her. He muttered to himself, " I should tell you..." he felt like maybe if he opened himself up and told her his secrets, she might admit she has an eating problem. She would admit already that she has a drug and drinking and partying addiction, but Eve would never admit to having an eating disorder. Felix knew she did, but not because she told him. He only knew because he knew her and understood her. He had some really dark moments in his life, especially before he met Luke. But he was getting better, besides his odd problems.

Felix walked over to his elder sister and looked down at her as she laid on the grass. When she asked him that question, he sighed, plopped down on the grass next to her. He let his legs stretch out and out his arms behind him to support himself. He looked up at the stars, he'd had just enough alcohol to loosen his feelings and emotions. " With you, probably... " he said and then chuckled, ' Me, not so much. I'm pretty sure I was born like this..." Felix looked at the direction she was pointing and sighed. Maybe he could get Eve to open up a little if he opened himself up to her. " Eve..." he said and put a hand on her shoulder, knowing she didn't like her waist touched. " Do you know what sadism/masochism is?" he asked with a sort of serious tone but with a stoic face.

[Maeve Lily Backstrom]

She heard him as he settled down beside her and she lifted her head to look over to him. One of those soft, carefully practised smiles slid into place. One that was always on when she had to be around their parents or out at important functions. It wasn't like she didn't want to be a good daughter. She had tried, honestly she had. She just never felt like she could quite measure up to their parents standards. Not to mention that her partying and substance and alochol abuse didn't get her any favor in their eyes. They'd really be upset with her if they knew she had been the one that had gotten Augusta into it. But that person was buried under so many years of self medicating it was hard to say who she really was anymore.

"With you, probably... me, not so much. I'm pretty sure I was born like this..."

She felt his hand move to rest on her shoulder, big brown doe eyes stared up at him as he said her name. "Do you know what sadism/masochism is?" Even in her rather drugged up state the serious tone of his voice made her pay more attention. Telling herself to ignore the dancing fairies for now no matter how pretty they might be. She shifted and pushed herself up so that she was sitting beside him now. She was sure she'd heard of those before. Where, where, where? She tried to work through the fog in her brain. History? No... no, that wasn't it. Psychology? Yes! Yes that was it. When they'd been studying the weird bearded man with glasses that talked about how girls wanted their fathers and boys their mothers. Ech. Hogwash in her opinion.

She gave him a little nod. "A little... it was grazed over in Psych last semister." Though truth be told if he asked her to recall everything she'd be fuzzy. She could probably tell him the round about basics. "Wasn't something we covered in depth but I know the general drift behind it." Her gaze darted off to the side as she watched a little blue fairy dance over one of his hands. A twitch of a smile crossed her lips again. "Wow.... the fairies are everywhere tonight."

[Augusta Felix Backstrom]

Felix could see the wheels in his sister's head turn when he asked her if she knew what it was. He knew her better than anyone and he knew that right now, thing weren't really stable. He was so used to taking care of her as of late. Before he met Luke he was just like her, all fun and games. But now that he's with Luke... he's grown up a little. He can see how out of her mind she is and he truly does worry about her. But Felix was never close to anyone, besides Luke. He didn't want to interfere with her buisness; she had never bothered him about the things he did so why should he get into her problems? It wasn't his place to scold her when he used to be just as bad. Though he was less drugs and more sex, but the same amount of partying and drinking. He was the more lustful of the two siblings, but it wasn't too bad, Luke never seemed to mind. And it's not like Eve was ever sober enough to scold him about his sex life.

Felix smiled softly when she said she knew what he was talking about. Then the comments on the fairies. He chuckled, only his sister would ruin this serious moment with talk of hallucinations she saw in her drugged-state. He looked away and up at the stars, " Well that's my secret. I'm a masochist... that's why I always have the bruises." He glanced over at her and sighed, he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her into a tight hug. " I worry about you all the time sis... I hope you know that..." Felix rested his forehead on her shoulder, she was so thin and always intoxicated by something. He knew that she wasn't going to be able to live like this forever... Maybe she really did need a good arranged marriage. Maybe a good man could help her.

[Maeve Lily Backstrom]

"Well that's my secret. I'm a masochist.... that's why I always have the bruises." Then his arms circled about her and pulled her into a hug. "I worry about you all the time sis... I hope you know that..." She felt his forehead move to rest on her shoulder and a hand went up and stroked his dark hair gently. She did have a much softer, motherly side that the world rarely saw. She had helped to raise her siblings, not that she'd done a good job of it, mind you. Faint smile touched her lips at his words, smoothing his hair down once more.

"It's all shiny Auggie-cakes. Really..." She leaned her cheek against his head a moment just sitting there with him, letting her lids flutter closed. "Like... I promise you don't have to worry. Honest." She lifted her head then and looked down at him a moment before planting a kiss to the top of his head. Maybe she should make a point to eat a thing or two in front of him. Starting to wonder if he'd noticed she was just pushing the food around on her plate and mixing it together and distracting them to make think she'd been eating. She did that both at home and school. Much as she really didn't want to, she just might have to force herself to eat more than the few things she already did.

She could just add more time to her runs to compensate that though right? "When all of us were little... and together." A slow smile crept over her lips. "I miss that." A semi lucid comment on this bender, a little pause lingering before she spoke again. "And snickerdoodles." Mostly because she didn't bother to eat any sweets. Of course it didn't mean that she didn't have cravings for things still. She had just gotten good at managing and controlling them. She couldn't help but grin a bit more as she looked to him. "Remember when I told you that you had to put actual doodles in the cookie dough to make them?" She hadn't always been so 'crazy', really more playful back then.

A soft giggle left her as her eyes closed again. Little breeze blowing blonde locks across her face. Her whole body was humming. She felt light as a feather. Almost as if she could float away, maybe she would have if Felix hadn't been hugging her. Her own arm was draped about him loosely in a gentle embrace.