c e r e l i a k a t e r i n a h a w k 
now i've got a confession. when i was young i wanted attention and promised myself that i'd do anything for them to notice me. but i ain't complaning, we all wanna be famous so go ahead and say what you wanna say. you kno what it's like to be nameless, want them to know what your name is. cause see when i was younger i would say; when i grow up i wanna be famous, i wanna be a star, i wanna be in movies. when i grow up, i wanna see the world. drive nice cars, i wanna have groupies. when i grow up, be on tv, people know me, be on magazines. when i grow up fresh and clean, number one check when i step out on the scene. be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it, you might just get it, you might just get it.... _____imetmybestfriendinprague like family as if the drink weren't enough, a stagger cannot compete
inseperable until the rent checks wear thin because it hasn't sunk in
attached at the hip there's no charm in being residential state street
partners in crime the dust starts building until it's hard to come clean
best friends i wish you could know better than you show with parted lips
close friends and if i was sober could i kill caution and stay over
good friends that the whiskey soothes more than you could ever do
average friends and if i was sober would i rip hearts apart like paper
enemies turned friends a difference it made, what a difference it made
partying friends deserted houses, all our stable mates highway bound
drinking friends measly sum, getting the air inside my lungs is heavenly
on and off starting out with nothing but crippling doubt, we'll rest easy
friend of a friend countless repeats, the gift of memory's an awful curse
just met with age it just gets much worse, but i won't mind, i won't mind
first name basis from my ears, and waste a day so i can think clearly
acquaintances spent this last year choking the bottles neck
_____nosympathyforthedead choke and die now feel the blade, but you're the one that needs help
hardcore hatred you were better at lies, at the way that if felt
mutual hatred for me, i cut the throat of betrayal to watch him bleed
one sided hatred so tell me now that you can swim when ropes are wrapped
mutual dislike sending shivers right down your spine, it's something
one sided dislike current was strong enough tonight, i can taste anymore
friends turned enemies i heard the tremble in your voice cradle the fall
cheated grab my heart, take this down with your soul and bury it
backstabbed there is a fine line between betrayal and your friends
friendly rivals i followed streetlights till i wound up at your place
rivals there's no more chances, so tell me now that you can swim
jealousy through the smoke a silhouette i can barely see there's a man
scared of hiding from the gallows, they keep me safe and sound
avoidance so i walk with shadows, the ways of burning down this house
love-hate all the vibrant colors i see, and the shades that fill the grey
annoyance looked me straight in the eyes this is what he had to say
by association this place lies within the depths of my dreams
_____iwantaloveridonthavetolove final love the cigarettes and phone calls don't keep me warm
in love place to meet, my mind is still racing while the city sleeps
current love quarantine my heart, baby, in someone else's arms
future love in a world filled up with players on opposing teams
possible future love on the interstate, such an unforgiving journey
past love-good terms how can we survive and finally live our dreams
past love-bad terms but i'm getting sick of waiting to hear from you
past love-still chemistry an echo in the dark i wish was you, if i only
mutual crush form a sound, to convince myself you'll come around
crush on --- please, it makes me insane, everyday i just can't stand
crush on you turning away from you, so cut the ropes and let's go
friends-enemies with benefits anywhere but here, i've had it
fuck buddies longest wait of mine, keeps playing over and over
make-out buddies and now i miss your simple pleasures
fling-one nighter i wish you would hang up and turn around
physical attraction but i swear you wouldn't be so lonely
sexual tension you're not here, every night is a nightmare
on and off it would make my life to see you turn
flirting so how's your affair with the millionaire
_____youonlyseewhatiletyousee family and everything that you thought you cant forget
bad influence been there, seen that, and i ain't taking you home
good influence and if you dont get it let me repeat it, just forget
mixed feelings im everywhere that you go and i still got soul
protective over --- im doubled up throwing double bs in the air
protective over you the streets are full of anything you want
respect the way im living makes you feel like giving up
emotional support you dont, and i want everything for you
room mate whatever it takes, im gonna make my way home
admiration used to dream you up and make you up in my mind
stalker you gave me something i could hold on to, woah-oh
obsession not long ago i gave up hope, but you came along
fake friend get back, you know that the city is burning
secret i don't care about my guilty pleasure for you
childhood i was lost in the wild, but you built a home
family friend in our dreams we can be complete, if we go
mentor cause people change, can't you see my eyes
never spoken i already know, baby you've been let down
other-specify you kept a list of the things you'd miss
_____gravitythrowsalltheserulesthis was made by lj, aka infected.dreams of white pages. if you steal this, she will hunt you down, cut you open and throw your intestines to bloodthirsty dogs. don't take the credit off, because it's mean, and she will know one way or another. lyrics are from awesome bands like bright eyes, powerspace, cobra starship, escape the fate, death cab for cutie, and a line from beth nielsen chapman. colors are from the colorblender everyone uses. inspiration is from everyone and anyone, but mostly white pages users. kthnxsbai.
___ `` WHEN I GROW UP !, CERELIA
