FFOF Closed!

Seeing as I kinda can't post on ACF and I'm sure this'll be passed on, I figured I'd post it here because I never really offered anyone (minus Andy) an explanation of why I did what I did.

Truth be told, I don't care what my title said I was never Admin of ACF. When I was Co-Admin of ACF [both times], it came off as being a glorified S-Mod position. When it was me and Shadow Girl, we were expected to do things, but never given the authority to do anything. What fun that was.

Even though I tried to avoid the same thing from happening with Darkbeat, in the end it did because , let's be honest, half of the members can't stand him and 90% of the time Darkbeat goes running off with his tail tucked between his legs and left me cleaning up his urine trail. Try running a forum when you're only one of the legs. You end up stumbling for a few feet before falling on your face and getting blamed for the whole thing just because I was there.

And for the past two months I've been pretty fuckin' ill, too sick to go to school, too sick to care about a forum. Ahh... we've had this excuse in the past, haven't we? Well, I could post pictures of my perscriptions...(all 5 of them, including stuff like vicodin, midrin and demerol) I could probably dig up a hospital wrist band or two if I tried. Pity I didn't get a copy of the permit I had to sign for my spinal tap. Now that was some painful shit. And then there was the blood patch. Ehh... google it if you're interested.

Only to come back and find out... gasp! Guess what? Still wasn't an Admin. Darkbeat still felt like he could call the shots, Felix felt the need to try and ass rape everything I did from forum decisions to my grammer, we went through G-Mods and Section Mods so fast I can't keep track of them and only person I could ever really count on [X-SOLDIER] has so many computer problems I've run out of fingers and toes to count them on.

xD Honestly, it was that I either didn't like them, or didn't know most of them. So how the hell was I supposed to run them?

And then trying to find time between doctors appointments, therapy sessions, and the latest medication where a common side effect was "memory loss and difficulty concentrating"? No thank you, however much fun it is taking me to crowded public places.

Not to mention, somewhere a long the way I just got stuck in the persona of a 15 1/2 year old fangirl that, to quote Kurosawa, didn't know my ass from my elbow. I was stuck in that awkward position were everytime I did something on my own I got scolded for it, yet everytime I took measures to discuss it with the staff I got yelled at for taking too much time or not "being an Admin" and doing it myself. Despite the fact that, in truth, I happen to be 18 years, been on this forum for 2 1/2 years, and modded it a little over 2 of them. Yeah, it sucked. Not yet a girl, not yet a woman. At least I kept my panties on.

So why Darkbeat? Well... to be 100% completely honest with you [and in doing so dooming all chances of me ever regaining a Staff position at ACF ever again], it was because I knew he was probably doomed to failure. It was mean, it was vindictive, selfish, probably partially drug induced but I was past the point of caring. I knew that if I said "Here you go Darkbeat", nobody on Staff would really second guess the decision and I could sit back and watch him crash and burn. Sorry Glenn, but between you and Felix (and a few others) I just got tired of everbody expecting me to fail.

Oh, and by the way, I was never corrupted. People never seem to grasp the fact that there's a difference between Geostigma the err... Former Admin and Megan the person sitting on the computer. 15 year old fangirl, 18 year old I really should have better things to do then this. That's why I was friends with people like The Doctor and the The Man, though I still think they would make damn good forum Mods, if nothing else then their activity and common sense. It was because they were more like the friends I have in real life, not the persona I seemed to fall into.

xD And lastly, I am the only Admin in ACF history that managed to get in and out of it without personally being a major cause of drama. Well, now we're back to that whole "Was I ever Admin..."

Ah screw it. I'll probably sometime in February when the semester ends and then it'll be too late so nyeh] so see you all later!

... And yes, this is Geostigma.

Is it wrong for me to find the reason you gave him admin again amusing?

Nah, I'm amused by it too.

But bloody hell, it's obviously for the best that you got out of there.

Get better and shit.

I think that a majority of people are getting sick of the regime there, loads are leaving and only a loyal few are sticking around.

you've always treated me with friendship, even when we disagreed. it's fair to say that you've been the best staff member of any forum i've been a part of. i was discussing your awesomeness with daryl falchion earlier and we came to the conclusion that you were such a good staffer because you weren't as serios busines as the other staffers and you took the time to get to know people and see their point of view. in doing that it inspired others (although i can only speak for myself) to treat you the same.

i think you left ACF staff at the best possible time. you'll be remembered by many as the best staff member ever and in making darkbeat admin again you'll deliver a killing blow to that forum for a lot of the dedicated members.

I hope you get your muffiny arse better ASAP and post here more, i'd also like to thank you for taking the time to understand other perspectives, something a lot of people never do.

Somebody copy/paste to ACF for maximum Laugh Out Louds plsthanks.

Ok Doc, I joined, what now?

now you need to post. like the wind.

Now you get the fuck out, is what you do.

TSA, play nice now. i know you have history with kaleidoscope, but this isn't the time or place!

He's a fucking retard.

I'm really glad that I took the time to read that. First off I just want to say that I really hope you get well soon.

You're very lucky you left ACF when you did. Right now, it's just been a pain in the ass for me to deal with. I've been debating over and over whether I should just leave staff or not....Daryl already made her decision and I honestly say I wish she would stay but I respect her decision for leaving and I don't blame her for leaving.

I've been wondering so long why you chose Darkbeat to admin in your place. People were saying that him and Felix got you "soft side" but I guess now I pretty much know the truth. And...I found it amusing too. xD

I don't know what I have more to say to this other than I'm sorry that you had to go through all that and tell you that I always thought that you were a good admin. Never biased for one huge thing and you actually listened to members' ideas rather than just casting them aside if they had done something to you.

This post has been edited by Mew Mew <3 on Jan 6 2007, 08:16 PM

I thought Daryl made a post in Spam saying s/he was staying after all?

Geeeeeooooooooooooooooooooooooo *quadruple glomps*

First of all thank you so much for taking the time to post all that and even more importantly I really hope that you get well soon too.

I can totally understand your reasons for wanting to stuff the whole place, having to clean up other people's messes can just grate on you, especially if you're not getting the proper support you need (and when you are made to feel like its just a puppet position)

Frankly, as for being an admin vs being a member of the forums I have to say you certainly tried the hardest too keep a good balance. I don't see any of the other admins quitting their teams so not to be biased now >_> (and indeed what is the point of being a member if you can't have a little fun, it's not like you were abusing power by giving your friends and people in your clubs freebies and special priviledges)

And now that I know why you recommended Darkbeat I can lol to myself quietly :3

All my lufs and oreos to you

She's staying until the staff review is over. I would have to ask her what she's going to do after it's over though. I don't know if she would stay if she was promoted or something.

Never mind. Just asked her on MSN. She's staying.

I reckon that if we set up a decent vBulletin with the right people on staff, we could kill ACF for good.

This might be a good time for me to set up that music site I've been talking about making for months now. If only I weren't swamped with schoolwork. Ahh it'll have to wait a couple weeks.

Geo, we barely know each other, but I freaking love you. Reasons: 1) For being the admin Darky could never be, in all honesty; 2) For Being ACf's hardworking admin and S-mod for a good prtion of it's lifetime; 3) For making that long post to explain everything.

I salute you. I. Just. Salute. You.

Edit: Sounds good, Aaron.

This post has been edited by Sango Lockhart on Jan 7 2007, 12:48 AM

Been a while since I last heard from her. I'm sorry that you're sick girl. But like Ren, I find the idea of you giving the position back to Darkbeat amusing since he loves the position so much (Pressumably). So all in all I'd like to say take care of yourself and sorry for not greeting you in New Year. =S Drama in forums Affected my working time.



Also hi to Aquila.

I apologise for my comment geo. Didnt know you was all ill and shit. Shouldn't have jumped the gun tbh.

I wasn't offended by your comment, thought it was rather entertaining actually. As you can see by the rest of my err... "ode" (I don't want to call it a rant, I'm really not mad at anybody, nor do I want to start unneed shit) I think a lot of people felt that way. I kinda did up and leave.

I just felt people need to know why I did it. Being sick was a way to leave staff without too many questions ask, but I realized belatedly that it probably wasn't going to get passed onto the members, nor was it 100% the truth. It was just the easiest way for me to avoid trouble.

I really hate Admin drama.

FYI: The doctors have narrowed it down to either encephalitis or some odd strain of the mumps. I just keep getting there crazy ass migranes. I'm starting to feel better, but I'm still on some pretty heavy medicine and will be for a while.

This post has been edited by Weiss on Jan 7 2007, 09:16 AM

Firstly, I hope you get better soon.

Secondly, I'd promote you back to Admin in a second for above.

That's the way my mind works

Yeah, I'd like to apologise as well. I sincerely hope you get well soon Geo, but I know that you probably dislike me after that last episode of drama, and I respect that.

My god, I looked up what that encephalitis means, that's some harsh shit. Take it easy if that is what you've got. Hell just take it easy in any case.

Ya know I gotta say sorry for ditching staff when you just became "admin", I was just so fed up with how it all was I thought I'd go mad if I stuck around for much longer. It's totally been the healthiest decision I've made. I guess you know what it's like leaving an' all too. =P Hah it's funny because my excuse for leaving wasn't entirely true either. I also know what it's like being Darkbeat's shadow. That's how I always referred to it, you're supposed to be on even ground with him, but you're really transparent and have no influence to speak of, he's still the boss. It doesn't have much to with the admin stuff, but being team leader of RoA. Only real difference here is I didn't take flak for things that went ary. It's bad you ended up shouldering that crap on top of it all. But you did get away looking way better then some.

Ah well. I've left ACF completely and I'm happy 'bout that. FFOF seems to be much more livelier these days.

Again, hope you can overcome this whacked out illness and see you around here some.

All the best, Geo. That's some rough shit.

Geoooooooooo

Geooooooooooooooooo

I want a Geo and a want one now

I forgive you geo after all

i do love you so.

I heard a lot of rumours as to why you left, but never knew the real or full reason. Glad I do now, and it really is a good reason to leave. ACF is going to hell anyway.

Oh and nice work adminning DB to see ACF crash. Because that's what going to, and is happening right now.

You were a good admin on ACF that very little people ever complained about. You never added to drama and like Doc said, you took time to view both perspectives in shit. You are one of the few admins I ever had respect for. Hope you get better soon.

And to Aaron, make it happen.

I didn't .

Good idea for a new topic though.

Like the Doc said, I always resepcted you. You seem to understand how to balance both the staff and the memebers and not ignore one to get favor from the other. I can easily say that I think you're the best mod/admin I've ever had the pleasure to work with and I don't care how contrived that sounds. I wouldn't have secretly job-shadowed you if I didn't think so.

I'm very sorry you're so sick. I'm even more sorry that you had to deal with the troubles at the forum while you're sick. I completely understand why you left. Health comes first after all.

'Course this all makes me nervous seeing as I'm the new admin but I can hope that the footsteps you created will make things easier for me and ulimately better for the forum in general.

Take care of yourself and thanks.

Seriously, I don't think Felix and DB are capable of sharing power with anyone who doesn't agree with their views on how a message board is run.