posture.

[Steffi.]

6:56 PM
Thursday; September 22nd '05

boys have to be the single most confusing thing at this moment.

i don't feel insecure, just unsure. usually, the two walk hand-in-hand, but not this time around.

i'm not sure what i'm supposed to be feeling right now.

between one and two, i think i'm going to go with three.

[Steffi.]

8:14 PM
Monday; September 26th '05

i can't help but wonder what i would have done if he had said "i love you". he could have. i mean, i could even have imagined him saying it. i even expected it. it's like, with the mood we set, it seemed like the next thing that should have been said. but i'm really glad it wasn't. i mean, i really, really, really like him. but i don't love him. i do love someone, but it's not him. i mean, -sigh, i feel so bad for even saying that, but what can i do? that's just how i feel.

but aside from that, the days have been nice. i have been enjoying myself and i can't wait until next tuesday. green day will be playing and i will be watching. ^^ yay!

also, my dad is visiting this weekend. i'm glad i get to see him. i haven't gotten to since the week after summer school ended and i miss him a lot.

[Steffi.]

10: 42 PM
Monday; October 3rd, 2005

I love him. That's all there is to it. I love him. I. Love. Him.

[Steffi.]

1:01 AM
Sunday; October 23rd, 2005

Hey there, I'm still feel bad.

But my feelings for him aren't any different.

But, hey, I'm sorry.

[Steffi.]

1:55PM
Sunday; October 30th, 2005.


Mhm. I'm still doing just fine.

Fake? I don't think so.

Happiness isn't a lie this time around, hun.

PS- This song makes me happy.

Boats and Birds
GREGORY & THE HAWK

If you’ll be my star-
I’ll be your sky
You can hide underneath me
And come out at night
When I turn jet black
And you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine

If you can sky rocket away from me
You’ll never come back
If you find another galaxy
Far from here
With more room to fly
Just leave me your stardust
To remember you by

If you’ll be my boat-
I’ll be your sea
The depth of pure blue
Just to procure curiosity
Ebbing and flowing
And pushed by a breeze
I live to make you free
I live to make you free

But you can set sail
To the west if you want to
And past the horizon
Until I can’t even see you
Far from here
Where the beaches are white
Just leave me your wake
To remember you by

If you’ll be my star-
I’ll be your sky
You can hide underneath me
And come out at night
When I turn jet black
And you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine

If you can sky rocket away from me
You’ll never come back
If you find another galaxy
Far from here
With more room to fly
Just leave me your stardust
To remember you by

Stardust…
To remember you by