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 your ballroom days are over, baby!, aidennn, my love.
Stellar Charleston
Posted: Nov 28 2010, 04:03 PM



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Sex. In biology, nothing more than the combining and mixing generic traits, which was what sex was for, reproduction. It was a cold description, nothing like the real thing. Oh, how the memory made Stellar blush. After their little get-together at sun/moon, Stellar had walked around the city for a little while, not quite ready to go home and face her parents. How could she, when she'd just had the most amazing moment of her life with a guy she disliked in the back of a bar. When she finally did go home, she was sure her parents could see it on her face, but they'd said nothing out of the ordinary to her.

The rest of the week, Stellar had been sure people could read it on her face, that all she thought about was that moment, but she knew that was ridiculous of course, mind readers did not exist. So she'd been free to spend most of her time in class thinking back to it, grinning behind her book. She hadn't seen Aiden all that much last week and when she did see him and their eyes met, Stellar was sure she could feel the sparks between them on her skin. Hell, she was sure they could set something on fire. Of course, they'd returned to their usual fighting, but it didn't real feel the same, which was of course because they shared something now, something that was theirs only.

Of course, the real world didn't stop moving and just two days earlier, her mother had remembered Stellar of an upcoming socialite ball back in New York where she was supposed to be. If she'd been any other teenager, she would have told her mother to go to hell with her stupid ball, but Stellar being a good kid, pretended she had not totally forgotten about it and that, yes, she was very excited. Okay, so maybe she was a little excited, sometimes it was fun to return back to the city and back into the life of a New York socialite, she liked the people, the style, the feeling it gave her and the fact that she got to wear a pretty dress. She could almost hear Aiden's voice in her head, mocking her for being a rich snob. Wait, why the hell was she thinking of Aiden's voice and why did it even matter what he thought about this?

The only problem with the whole ball thing was that it involved dancing and that was one thing Stellar couldn't do. Really, she could have a conversation with almost anyone, she could paint and write nice essays, but she couldn't dance. Most of the time, she had managed to avoid the dancing part, but this time, she was one of the 'upcoming' socialites, so she had to dance infront of a lot of people. Stellar had watched a million youtube vids by now, but she knew she had to really do it if she wanted to learn how to dance, so that was why she was in one of the buildings empty classrooms, standing in the middle, her hands on her hips, waiting till Aiden arrived.

Wait, what? Yes, Stellar was desperate and secretly also just wanted to see him again, so she had texted him, asking him to meet her here to teach her how to dance. He seemed like the dancing guy and it was not like she had anyone else to turn to.
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Aiden Schroeder
Posted: Dec 3 2010, 01:35 AM



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Aiden Schroeder was not normally the type of guy to hide his emotions. He was an artist! He expressed his emotion every way he could... he practically wore his heart on his sleeve. He wasn't scared of love. He'd "been in love" many times, in fact. So why was it that he was working so hard to hide his feelings for Stellar Charleston?

The first time Aiden realized that he didn't exactly hate Stellar had been months ago. It wasn't a happy realization whatsoever. He'd always thought that she was stunningly beautiful of course, but the fact that she annoyed him so much had always mattered more. So when she suddenly wasn't quite as annoying... he had a problem and he knew it. So he started prompting fights even more often, simply to prove that she didn't mean anything to him. She was a spoiled, rich, socialite who would never truly give him a second glance... why even bother?

Then, it had been more than a slight idea. He found himself actually looking for reasons to see her. Each time he saw her, he found himself fighting the urge to kiss her. And fight it he did... until Stellar snuck into the backroom of Sun/Moon after his performance.

The night of Aiden's most recent gig had not gone at all as planned. He'd expected to get high, perform and spend the night drinking until he passed out around four in the morning in his apartment. Instead, Stellar had showed up, surprised to see him performing. To surprise him right back, she went straight to the back room as soon as it was over. He'd never expected to so much as kiss Stellar, but she'd gotten fed up with him and made a move in the middle of another one of their fights. What followed was a night that Aiden had never seen coming. It was of course, something he'd wanted for a very long time... but to actually hook up with Stellar was a shock. He had thought that she was far too goody-good to do such a thing. Apparently, she was a bit tired of being a goody-good.

It was a night that had been playing in his mind constantly. Much to Aiden's dismay, he'd realized something absolutely nerve-wracking after he and Stellar had sex. He was actually, truly falling for her. That was not okay! As tired as Stellar might have been getting of her structured life, she wasn't tired enough of it to give it up. She would always choose that world over him and he knew it. If there was a way he thought that she could have both he would have taken it in a heartbeat but there just wasn't. He didn't belong in that world. He'd already tried but it was the most miserable thing he'd ever experienced. So he was going to have to keep his mouth shut about his feelings for her. It would simply complicate things.

It wasn't very likely that his resolve would last. Aiden was prone to making stupid and impulsive moves and he knew it, so he made a last ditch effort to ignore his feelings for the blonde heiress. He avoided her. He didn't talk to her for the entire week after they had sex. He missed her, but he didn't want to push it. Then she texted him.

Stellar wanted his help to practice her dancing before a big upcoming ball. Seriously? Didn't she know by then how he felt about anything to do with the upperclass? He hated it. There was no way he was getting involved with it. Absolutely not... oh of course he was going to help her.

As a kid, Aiden had grown up in the upperclass. His mother had expected him to remain there, so she forced him to take ballroom dancing lessons to prepare for the day that he would escort a girl at her debutante ball or whatever. He'd despised. He never thought that he would see a day that he would be thankful that his mother had forced them upon him. That day had arrived though. At least it was one more thing he could prove himself with to Stellar. She was used to rich, charming guys who could sweep her off of her feet with their suave dancing. Normally, he had no way to compare with them in her eyes... but when it came to music and sex and things like dancing that were forced upon him when he was still part of her world, h knew what he was doing. In that way at least, he could compete a little.

But it would still never be enough and he knew it. So he made his way to the empty classroom where he'd promised to meet Stellar, reminding himself not to do anything impulsive. Nothing stupid and nothing impulsive... nothing stupid and nothing impulsive...

"Do you have any idea how much you owe me for this?" Aiden smirked as he walked into the classroom, shutting the door behind him with a laugh. His heart flipped in his chest as he layed eyes on her. The last time he had seen her they'd ended up very comfortable with each other. Now, he wasn't sure where the boundaries were. But they were alone, and he had the intense urge to push her against the wall and kiss her like he'd been dreaming about doing for the past seven days.

Nothing stupid and nothing impulsive. He sighed, glancing around the barren room. "I mean really," he laughed weakly. "Shouldn't a socialite be able to dance by now? Don't they teach you that when you get to junior high?"

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Stellar Charleston
Posted: Dec 3 2010, 06:10 AM



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As she waited for him, she leaned against the desk in the front of the room, the only piece of furniture in the entire room. Stellar had never been a very patient person, so she tapped her foot, crossing and uncrossing her arms several times, her mind wandering off. She wondered why the school didn't use this room. She moved from her place against the desk to stand behind it, glancing around the room and pretending she was a teacher. That would actually be kind of nice, teaching kids things. Of course, Stellar knew most of the kids in high school didn't even want to be here, so she didn't even try to pretend she would change lifes if she ever decided to teach, but teaching at college could be nice. Oh, she was sure her father would pretty much explode, he of course wanted her to become a doctor or a psychiatrist like himself.

Well, fuck him, lately she had noticed her parents annoyed her more and more each day. She had been the perfect high school prep, playing several sports, nice grades, member of almost every club and here she was, working her ass off in college and it still wasn't good enough. Maybe she ought to move out of the house. Yes, it was lovely living at home, she never had to anything, they had a cleaning lady, her mother cooked, there was a pool and a hottub, but still, none of those things made her feel any better.

Of course, the thing that did make her feel better, was the one thing she couldn't have. Aiden. Stellar sighed a she thought of him, tilting her head back. Why had she even asked him to teach her how to dance? Not only would she be alone with him in one room, he would also discover she could even dance. Knowing Aiden, he would probably use it against her.

It was too late to cancel now though, since she heard the door open. Stellar turned to face him, smirking. "Do you have any idea how much you owe me for this?" She grinned, bowing slightly. "I am forever in your debt, mr. Schroeder." As she glanced back at him, she was surprised to feel her heart do a little jump. He was gorgeous as always and she had to stop herself from reaching out to touch his face and kiss him.

Going back to her original position against the desk, she shook her head. "Nah. I had some.. family troubles in junior high, so I didn't participate. And I suck at dancing." She made a face, shrugging. Claudia, her sister, had thrown on one of her infamous parties when Stellar was in junior high and she had ended up in the hospital, having her stomach pumped. Her parents, too busy with keeping their oldest daughter alive and well, had forgotten about the dancing classes and Stellar honestly didn't mind at all.

"So I hoped you could teach me something? Please?" She got her Ipod out of her bag and her Ipod speakers, putting them on the desk and selecting the special playlist she'd put together for this. Stellar pressed play and looked at him, smiling slightly.
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Aiden Schroeder
Posted: Dec 3 2010, 08:03 AM



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"I am forever in your debt, Mr. Schroeder." Stellar moved around to the front of the only desk in the room, leaning against it. It was such a simple move that she probably didn't even think about the effect that it would have on him. His mind flashed back to the room behind the bar though. The table then hadn't been all that different from the surface she was almost sitting on now... Nothing stupid and nothing impulsive, he reminded himself.

"Nah... no debt," he grinned. "Happy to help..." He swallowed hard, trying to keep any implications out of his voice. "Nah. I had some.. family troubles in junior high, so I didn't participate. And I suck at dancing. So I hoped you could teach me something, please?" Did she honestly expect him to turn her down? Especially with the desperate expression on her face... he wouldn't have denied her anything in the world. Damn... he really was falling for her. The realization only made him more agitated with himself.

Aiden rolled his eyes lightly, crossing his arms. Oh well, it was inevitable that she would annoy him at some point. She always did. "Family problems? Yeah right..." He bit his lip and thought about it a moment. "No... actually... I believe that. Family problems run wild in that world... I'm just surprised that they'd let it overshadow the fact that a daughter who can't dance might embarrass them later," he laughed, slightly curious as to what had been so important that her parents had forgotten about making her a proper socialite. He wasn't going to press though. The look on her face when she'd mentioned it didn't make it seem like a pleasant memory.

Instead, he decided to continue with the entire point of his being there as Stellar pulled out the ipod and speakers. She already had the playlist made up and everything. How long had she been considering asking for his help? "Alright," he smiled lightly, moving forwards so that he was right in front of her. "Let's do this. Do you know anything about dancing?" He grabbed her hand and pulled her to the middle of the room, flinching slightly at the electric shock that ran through him at her touch. This was going to be pure torture.

He placed his right hand on her waist, overly aware of how close they were. He had to consciously focus on not moving his hand up and down over her side. Things would have been so much easier if they were just together already! He wouldn't have to worry so much about his actions and whether or not he was overstepping a boundary by even holding her hand.

Aiden took a deep, shaky breath. He just needed to stay focused. "OKay, now..." He took her left hand in his, pulling her just a little closer. "There really isn't all that much to it..."

It occurred to him at once that he was helping Stellar to go to a ball. It took two to dance in such a way... and socialite girls her age didn't go to balls unescorted. He was teaching her to dance so she could dance with someone else. His heart flipped painfully at the thought, but not in the good way it did when he saw her. "By the way," he started lightly, glancing over at the ipod on the desk. "Who's your escort for this ball? You never did tell me a name. Would I know him?" He was probably getting a law degree, or a medical degree. He would probably end up with a drinking problem ten years down the road. He probably didn't actually about how smart Stellar was or the way her eyes sparkled when she was angry. He probably only cared that she too was rich, and beautiful on top of it. At least... that was the way Aiden hoped it was. He didn't want to think about her having actual prospects...
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Stellar Charleston
Posted: Dec 3 2010, 02:15 PM



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A spark ran through her as he grabbed her hand, flashes of that night at sun/moon coming back to her, the feeling of his skin against hers, the sounds he made, the way he made her feel, like she could do anything. The memory made her blush and she glanced at their hands, reminded once again of the fact that they fit together like puzzle pieces.

Oh and then he placed his hand on her waist and she could just feel it burning through the fabric of her shirt and she just wanted to press herself against him, to take off his clothes and kiss him all over. God, she really had to get herself together, she wasn't a teenager anymore so the hormones should've calmed down by now. She moved with him to the middle of the room and chuckled at his question. "Uhm, not much? Okay, nothing." She shook her head, feeling like an idiot. Aiden was right, Stellar should have been able to dance by now, she was probably going to make a big fool out of herself at that ball where all the other perfect girls could dance.

Stellar moved closer to him as well, glad to have an excuse to be this close to him again. "Thanks anyway, for helping me." She nodded and then frowned. "You've been avoiding me. Stellar stated and looked up at him. She didn't like that at all, she even longed back to their bad days, if it only meant he'd stop avoiding her like she had some horrible disease.

Moving with him to the music a little, she found herself enjoying this. Aiden was fun to hang out with and it didn't hurt either that she could be close to him, while learning how to dance. She watched him, seeing a flash of something a lot like pain of his face, not quite getting what was up with him until he started talking. . "Who's your escort for this ball? You never did tell me a name. Would I know him?" Yes, this was the part she'd wanted to avoid as long as possible. Unfortunately Aiden wasn't stupid and he could put 1 and 1 together.

She looked away from his face. "His name is Scott." Scott was an old family friend who had been glad to go with her. She suspected he wanted something more, but all Stellar wanted was to be with Aiden. "I've known him my whole life. Our parents went to the same school and our family shares this house in the Hamptons and..-" Stellar realised she was rambling and that Aiden was probably starting to hate her, since he seemed to dislike everything upperclass. "He's okay." Stellar shrugged, hoping he got the hint that she had no intention of doing anything more than dancing with Scott.

Stellar did a little spin and grinned at him, moving closer again and trying to steer him away from that subject. "My sister. She's the reason I never learned how to dance. She's.. complicated." Stellar nodded and tried to recall the last time she saw Claudia, right before she was shipped up to some rehab center for young ladies in Europe. That was so like her parents, to just get rid off their problems, instead of dealing with it. "She overdosed that year when I was supposed to learn all this stuff and I don't know, I never mentioned it to my mom." Stellar was glad she hadn't, now she got to dance with Aiden.
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Aiden Schroeder
Posted: Dec 10 2010, 12:13 AM



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Standing so close to Stellar was difficult. Not because he was dying to strip her down and not because all he could think about was the night at sun/moon (both of which were certainly true), but because it reminded him of how much he wanted to actually be with her. Even their hands fit perfectly together! It was excruciating to know that they would never be more than good friends. He stared at their clasped hands for a moment, swallowing hard as he thought about being able to take her hand whenever he wanted for no reason whatsoever. He gave her hand a squeeze, reminding himself to smile.

"Thanks anyway, for helping me." Like she had any reason to doubt that he wouldn't. He'd never hid the fact that she got on his nerves but he'd also made it very well known that he cared about her. He would've done anything in the world had she asked it. Good thing she didn't realize that he cared that much. "Of course. I'm glad that those stupid dance lessons my mother forced me to take are finally being used for something," he smirked, grinning as she pushed him towards the center of the room.

It seemed so natural to be dancing with the beautiful blonde. They swayed quietly to the music for a moment, allowing Aiden to pretend that the dance meant more than it did before Stellar frowned up at him. He stopped moving, staring down at her curiously. Had he done something wrong already? "You've been avoiding me."

He let out a small sigh, his stomache turning as the words left her tantalizing lips. He averted his gaze as he searched for a way to reply. How did he explain that he just couldn't face up to the fact that everything he'd ever felt for her had grown exponentially complicated in a matter of days? "No... I've just been really busy..." he stammered clumsily, moving his hand awkwardly up her waist so that his fingertips weren't as close to her lower hips. He didn't want to her to think that all he was interested now was a friends with benefits type relationship. "I mean I uh...." He bit his lip, unhooking his hand from hers to run a hand nervously through his hair. "I didn't know if you still wanted to be my friend," he admitted in a hushed voice. "Or if it was going to be really awkward or difficult or... you know."

He took her hand again, placing his other hand gingerly on her waist so that they could continue dancing. "I'm sorry," he smiled shyly. "I shouldn't have avoided you." He turned them in a circle, his smile turning back into a legitimate grin. He liked being with Stellar more and more every time they hung out.

The easy peace lasted only another moment longer as they danced. "His name is Scott." Aiden would have hated the name no matter what it had been. Suddenly, he hated everything about this mystery man... the one who was taking the girl he should have been with to the ball.

Aiden froze up a little, his limbs stiffening. He didn't say anything though. He just let her discuss the man. What could he say? He couldn't pretend to be happy for her, but he couldn't say anything mean or admit to hating him either. "I've known him my whole life. Our parents went to the same school and our family shares this house in the Hamptons and..-"

The Hamptons. Of course. Their families shared houses in the Hamptons. They'd probably spent multiple Summers in their designer bathing suits chasing each other on the beach and para sailing in the family boat. Aiden grimaced at the image. It wasn't fair. If only he hadn't ever given up that world... it had made him miserable yes... but it would mean that he could be with Stellar. Perhaps if he were to put on a good suit, study economics and drink overpriced scotch... maybe then she and her family would accept him... His heart sunk at the idea of actually going that far but he knew that it was either deal with his situation or go back to the world he'd hated so much.

He was pretty sure that he went pale at the very thought. "I see," he nodded lightly. "He sounds great. Sounds like you two will have fun."

Thankfully Stellar changed the subject. She threw him a grin and spun around. The atmosphere brightened almost instantly. He shivered a little as she moved closer to him. If they had been together... if he'd had the freedom that he really wanted... he would have been able to kiss her right then. He would have been able to stop moving, wrap his arms entirely around her, and kiss her. Instead, he just laughed and lowered her into a bit of a dip.

"My sister. She's the reason I never learned how to dance. She's.. complicated." Aiden raised an eyebrow, pulling her slightly closer. Stellar hadn't actually told him that much about her family. He assumed plenty, but he was sure that there were more problems there than she voiced. "Yeah? How so?"

"She overdosed that year when I was supposed to learn all this stuff and I don't know, I never mentioned it to my mom." That one surprised Aiden. Yes, he knew that she was caring and a little more quiet than he'd admit, but he hadn't expected her to be so... unlike a spoiled rich kid. Most other teenagers would have demanded that they get their debutante preparation no matter what was going on around them.

He didn't really know what to say. What had driven her sister to overdose? He didn't want to pry though. Instead he settled for another question. "Do you and your sister get along well?" He turned them again, realizing that they hadn't actually done much more than sway back and forth. He wasn't doing a very good job as a dance instructor.

"Here," he smiled. "I'll move forward with my left leg, and you move backwards at the same time with your right leg. We'll end up making a square eventually..." He took a cautious step forward, looking down at her feet to make sure that she was moving right.
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Posted: Dec 10 2010, 04:36 AM



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She'd noticed his reaction as she talked about Scott and she wanted nothing more than to stop dancing, put her hands on either side of his face and tell him that it didn't mean anything, that if she could, she would take him. If she'd been a little less Stellar and a little more, well, Claudia, she wouldn't have agreed to go to that ball in the first place, not with Scott anyway. Then she would've taken Aiden to meet her parents and even if they didn't accept him, she wouldn't have cared. Oh yes, if, if, if, it didn't matter, she was Stellar and Stellar wasn't the kind of person not to follow the rules.

Stellar chuckled as he dipped her a little and squeezed his hand softly, loving the fact that they could just hang out now, even though he had doubted it at first, which was understandable. The next day after their hook-up back on campus, she had feared it would be too awkward, but she had discovered it only made her want to see him around more.

"Do you and your sister get along well?" She shrugged, moving with him as she thought about this. Did they? Thinking back to before everything went down, she could remember their fights, but all siblings fought, it was only natural. They never really did overly sister-like stuff like you see in movies, but they did share stories about boys and they often protected each other when it came to their parents. Claudia being the oldest, had always tried to teach Stellar a bit about, well, life, which Stellar had always laughed at a little, but they loved each other. "Yeah, we did. I haven't seen her in a while."

Glancing down at their feet to get the steps right, she talked on. "My parents, who couldn't live with the -embarrassment- of having a junkie daughter, shipped her off to Europe, some special rehab center for rich kids I guess." She couldn't help but sound a little bitter, even after all this time she still didn't understand her parents decision. How could they just dump their kid like that, leave her all alone on the other side of the frickin' ocean? "Then she ran off with her French boyfriend and sometimes I receive silly postcards from Spain or Italy or wherever, but that's it." Stellar shrugged a little, looking up at him.

Moving the hand on his back a little lower, she continued looking at his face, realising she didn't know a thing about his family. Stellar pictured them as being real hippie parents for some reason, like this really nice and cozy family. "What about your parents?" She asked and did another twirl, careful not to step on his feet. "And do you have any siblings?" She wondered if she was being to curious, but it wasn't like she could somehow take those questions back now, so she just decided to shut up for now and let him answer them.
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Posted: Dec 14 2010, 09:47 PM



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Perhaps Aiden underestimated Stellar's family. He'd always thought that she had the perfect life... money, family, and smokin' hot friends. Well, she had the perfect life for her at least. He'd never know what gave him the audacity to assume that his family was the only ones screwed up because of the money they possessed.

Yeah, we did. I haven't seen her in a while." He raised an eyebrow as he and Stellar danced, his heart flipping subtly when she squeezed his hand. He tightened his hand around hers in response, taking a slight step forward. It was so hard to breath correctly with her so close. "In a while?" He questioned, attempting to make himself focus "Where did she go?"

"My parents, who couldn't live with the -embarrassment- of having a junkie daughter, shipped her off to Europe, some special rehab center for rich kids I guess." Aiden swallowed hard, his heart plummeting quickly. A junkie daughter shipped off to Europe.. yep, that sounded like an upperclass family. "Oh," he muttered stupidly, unable to find anything else to say. He was too stunned by the fact that her life WASN'T perfect...and there he had been mouthing off all the time about how snobbish and oblivious she was...

"Then she ran off with her French boyfriend and sometimes I receive silly postcards from Spain or Italy or wherever, but that's it." Yep. Definitely a rebellious rich kid. Aiden had given it a little too much thought and over time, he'd come to realize that there were only three kinds of rich kids in the world: the kind who loved being rich and lorded it over everyone else, the kind who hated it and rebelled in the most ostentatious way possible, or the kind that hated it but silently endured it. Stellar's sister and Aiden both fit the second category... did Stellar fit the last? She complained about the upperclass world so often but she never seemed to truly despise it... "I'm sorry, Stellar," he breathed. It sounded very much like he was simply responding to the story about her sister, but in reality, he was apologizing for so much more; for being so cruel to her so often, and for assuming that he had it worse than she did all the time just because she hadn't rebelled against the upperclass world.

"What about your parents? And do you have any siblings?" Stellar did another twirl, managing to avoid his feet completely. For someone who hadn't ever taken lessons, she really wasn't bad at dancing. Aiden made a turn with the both of them, thinking carefully of a way to respond to her question. He'd never really told her much about his past before. How much would she really want to know?... And how much would he damage his chances with her forever if he ever told her everything?

"Yes... I have a sibling," he nodded slowly, barely aware of the music playing in the background as he decided to answer the easiest question first. "Her name is Lissa... she's five years younger than I am." He smiled a little, ducking his gaze from hers. His sister was his best friend. It pained him that it had been so long since they'd last talked. He missed her constantly but she'd chosen to stay in the world he'd left behind. Oh how surprised she would be if she ever found out that Aiden was considering rejoining that very world for a girl. "She's wonderful. I don't know why she puts up with my parents, but she's better than I am to do so. She's still back in England with them attending some prep school."

"And then there's my parents." He rolled his eyes just thinking about it. "Let's just say that we've never gotten on well. My father's a lawyer who works too much and yells a lot when he isn't working... you know, the usual. And my mother is the overworked, rich housewife... it takes a lot to order around all those people you know." He smirked, looking back down at Stellar. "I lived in the same world you do now, Stellar. I grew up in it. I went to at least five different boarding schools because, much to my parents' dismay, I kept getting kicked out. My sister thrived in it. She was the perfect socialite... she was the child my parents had hoped for. I, however, was the rebellious one. I did the drugs, I skipped class, I hit on all the girls... I refused to follow their rules. And the second I told my parents I wanted to do something besides be a lawyer, they tossed me out on the street with nothing but my guitar and my education, which they would have taken back had it been possible. They tried shipping me all over the world but, it just wasn't enough to hide the embarrassment they called their son." He narrowed his eyes bitterly. His parents had never exactly been the nurturing type, but he hadn't expected his parents to actually disown him when they threatened it. Little did he know.

"What do you see in all of that?" Aiden gushed suddenly, his eyes lighting up intensely as he stopped moving. "Why do you like that world so much? Why... why do you have to go to stupid balls and spend hundreds of dollars on ridiculous dresses just so you can date mundane men like... Scott who will only cheat with the maid ten years down the road? Is money really worth all of that!?" If Stellar just didn't care... if she could just defy her world...

He could never truly ask her to do that though. She wouldn't ask him to rejoin the upperclass society, so he couldn't ask her to leave it if she wanted it so badly. He sighed and stepped away from her, moving to turn the music up louder. "I was afraid this would happen," he breathed quietly. "This is why I was avoiding you. Let's just get this bloody dance lesson over with, yes?"
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"I'm sorry, Stellar," Stellar wasn't sure if he just felt sorry for her or if he was sorry for everything that had happened between them, but she liked the sound of it. She squeezed his hand again, thinking about the world she lived in as well. Oh, it was funny how they hung out, went to same school, had sex, but at the same time, lived in different worlds. Her world was filled with social events, being seen with the right people, expensive dresses, doing what people expected you do instead of the things you wanted to do. His world was like another universe, all the freedom he had. God, she almost felt sorry for herself, if only she didn't have a choice in all of this. She could be more like Aiden, more like her sister, but she choose to be like herself, to just suck it up and pretend it was okay. "It's okay." Stellar replied, nodding.

Chuckling as he spun them around, she watched him think, realising once more how bad she wanted to kiss him and take him back to her house, take Aiden to her room and pull him under the covers. not to have sex but to just wrap her arms around him and lay there, under the covers where they could create their own world where no one would judge them and where her parents, Scott and that stupid ball didn't even exist. The desire was so overwhelming it hurt, because she knew she couldn't do such a thing.

"Yes... I have a sibling, her name is Lissa... she's five years younger than I am." She tried to catch his gaze, but then decided to just let him talk, because from the way he was telling her this, she got the feeling his parents were not the cute hippie parents she had imagined them to be. "She's wonderful. I don't know why she puts up with my parents, but she's better than I am to do so. She's still back in England with them attending some prep school." She wanted to hug him so bad, but instead, she kept moving with him, looking up at him.

As he told her about his parents, she frowned a little. The guy who had mocked her for being from a rich family was exactly like her? For a moment, she forgot to focus on their feet and she stepped on his foot, quickly moving away a little and watching him as he talked on. Steller was shocked his parents had just thrown him out like that, but weren't her own parents the same? They had done the exact same to her sister when she decided to go her own way and she didn't doubt they'd throw her out as well if she decided to do whatever she wanted. It hurt to think like that, to know that your parents, the people you trusted the most, who protected you from the scary things in your closet, could just turn their backs on you. It made her feel lonelier than she ever had, because if you didn't have your parents on your side, who did you have?

"God, Aiden, I'm so sorry." Stellar mumbled, but he didn't seem to hear her as he suddenly stopped dancing all together. "What do you see in all of that?" She let go of his hands, placing her hands on her hips and sighing. He ranted on and she closed her eyes for a moment. It wasn't fair, he couldn't just say these things to her, like it was all her fault. Stellar watched him as he turned the music up. "This is why I was avoiding you. Let's just get this bloody dance lesson over with, yes?" No, no, fuck this, he couldn't just say all those things and then act like nothing had happened. She shook her head, grabbing her Ipod and turning the volume down.

"No, we will not just get this over with, you can't just tell me how much you hate the world I live in and expect me to be okay with that. You know how hard it is, I can't just decide to -not- to this kind of stuff." She snapped and watched him. "I don't.. I don't want my parents to throw me out and never talk to me again." Stellar sighed again, leaning against the desk. "Please, Aiden, don't do this to me, I know how you feel, but please, I'm just not ready to throw it all away." Stellar walked over to him, grabbing his hands. "I'm sorry for what happened to you, but you can't just blame me for it, that's not fair."
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Apparently, Stellar was so shocked by the fact that Aien had come from a rich family as well that she lost her focus. He winced as her foot came down on his. Now he could see why she needed the lessons. She wouldn't always be able to focus as hard as she needed to when dancing in public and it wouldn't do for a socialite like her to mess up a dance. Stupid upperclass world. That wasn't the main problem at hand, however. Not right then at least.

From the moment Aiden had walked in the room, he'd been trying to remind himself not to say anything stupid or do anything irrational. Well, as always, he had said something stupid and done something irrational. Not that he didn't mean what he'd said... he really wanted to know why Stellar clung to her world so tightly, but he probably shouldn't have been so passionate about it.

"No, we will not just get this over with, you can't just tell me how much you hate the world I live in and expect me to be okay with that. You know how hard it is, I can't just decide to -not- to this kind of stuff." Aiden sighed, closing his eyes as he pinched the bridge of his nose between his fingers. He could feel a headache coming on already. So much for the theory that their fighting was over since they'd hooked up. "No... Stellar... I know. I wouldn't ask you to just stop liking it, that wouldn't be fair. Which is why I tried to change the subject. I can't expect you to stop but you can't expect me to be okay with the fact that you clinging to that damn world is the only reason we'll never be together." He gave her a desperate look, his heart sinking at the realization that they were actually having that conversation. It only had two possible outcomes and he knew that it probably wouldn't be the good one.

It wasn't that Aiden couldn't sympathize with her. He knew what it felt like to choose between parents and freedom. It wasn't easy. He hadn't wanted to be disowned by his family either but... was it really worth giving up your life to cling to people who obviously really didn't care? "Please, Aiden, don't do this to me, I know how you feel, but please, I'm just not ready to throw it all away."

He swallowed hard as Stellar walked back over to him and grabbed his hands. He hoped the way he melted didn't show in his expression. It was just such an impossible situation! He didn't know how to handle it. "I'm not asking you to throw it all way. God knows I'd love for you to... but I know you won't. So I won't ask." He was surprised at the way it hurt to realize the truth in his statement. It wasn't like he and Stellar had been in love for a long time or that he'd counted on marrying her but... he did love her.

"I'm sorry for what happened to you, but you can't just blame me for it, that's not fair." Aiden let go of her hands forcefully, his heart throbbing in his chest. He was so angry at the circumstances that it was hard to form rational thought. It wasn't fair! "I'm not blaming you for it... I'm blaming the idiots surrounding you. I know you don't want to lose your parents but, is it really worth sucking it up and living your life as someone else? You never get to speak your mind or do what you want or be with who you want... you'll end up marrying someone you hardly care about. If I thought for a second that I could rejoin that world to be with you I would but Stellar... I have nothing. I've got a beat up guitar and a history that kept me out of countless boarding schools. They'd never accept me and you know it." For a second, he considered the thought of Stellar actually marrying Scott. She was old enough, certainly. Would she really give up so much of her life because her parents demanded it?

"Why do you care so much? When you know they'd drop you at the first sign of disobedience... why do you care?" He moved back towards her. He wasn't being fair and he knew it. He was still hurt over the fact that his parents cared so little. How could he expect her to be any more numb to it? "When it means giving up people who actually care and things you actually want to do..." He cupped her face quickly, pulling her towards him, not giving himself a chance to rethink the move as he pressed his lips urgently to hers. He had to remind himself to focus on the way his body reacted to her touch, because he was sure that he wouldn't ever feel that way again after their fight. This one had an air of finality to it that terrified him.

He pulled back hesitantly, his lips still hovering over hers. "Doesn't that mean anything to you?"
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The light and fun mood had definitely left the building. This wasn't even like their usually teasing anymore, this was everything they'd never spoked out loud, everything he felt about the way she lived her life thrown out into the open and she wasn't sure she liked it.

"If I thought for a second that I could rejoin that world to be with you I would but Stellar... I have nothing. I've got a beat up guitar and a history that kept me out of countless boarding schools. They'd never accept me and you know it." Stellar let go of his hands, running her hands through her hair and glancing out of the window. She could just see a couple sitting on one of the benches, holding hands and giggling and she just wished she and Aiden could just be the stupid giggly couple, because that was so much better than this, discussing things they shouldn't even be thinking about at this stage in their relationship. Not that they were in a relationship or anything. "I don't care that all you have is your guitar and a bad reputation, I really don't." Stellar shook her head and crossed her arms over her stomach.

"Why do you care so much? When you know they'd drop you at the first sign of disobedience... why do you care?" She glared at him. It actually hurt even more when someone else said it, that her parents didn't even care that much. "Don't say that kind of stuff, maybe my parents won't do that." She murmured, looking away, feeling the tears well up in her eyes. Oh god, no, she didn't want to cry infront of him, she didn't want him to know his words moved her to tears. It was just the knowledge that her mother, who had always been there, would just ship her off to Europe if they needed to.

Stellar tried to wipe at her eyes without showing her tears, glancing out of the window again. "When it means giving up people who actually care and things you actually want to do..." She looked back at him, gasping a little as he cupped her face and pressed his lips to hers. She closed her eyes, holding onto him, even though the kiss didn't last for more than a few seconds. When he pulled back, Stellar wanted to pull him back, they could just forget their fight for a moment and go back to kissing. Instead, she opened her eyes and looked up at him, frowning.

"Doesn't that mean anything to you?" Stellar closed her eyes again, just for a moment. "Of course it does. It means more to me than any of this, the ball, the dress, Scott." She opened her eyes again and moved her hands to his chest. "But I just.. please, give me some time to think." She moved away from him, wrappin her arms around herself. "I don't want to lose my parents, but I don't want to lose you either."
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"I don't care that all you have is your guitar and a bad reputation, I really don't." Aiden was past caring about voicing his thoughts. He would still have preferred not to say anything stupid but he figured that she had already realized that he wanted her as more than a friend, so there wasn't much more harm he could create by being honest. "But you know they will! You know that you'll never be able to be with me as long as they care. They'll torment you."

Or at least, it wouldn't seem anything he could say could do more harm. Apparently, pointing out the fact that their parents sucked only made things worse. It didn't appear that she had quite come to grips with the reality of her world. Aiden's heart sunk as tears welled up in Stellar's eyes. She tried so hard to hide them, he could tell, but he still saw them regardless. The fight was getting them absolutely no where and now he only had guilt to add to it.

"Don't say that kind of stuff, maybe my parents won't do that." He moved back towards her, reaching out to hold her but changing his mind half way there. That probably wouldn't be a good thing for either of them right then. "N-no... no no no, Stellar... I... I'm sorry. I don't like the fact that our parents are like that... I hate it. So much. I still envy everyone who grew up with parents who cared...but some day you're going to have to face up to the fact that they might do something like that." He winced at his own words as soon as they'd left his mouth. Yeah. That was sensitive. He was really starting to pull overtime as a jerk. And Stellar was still crying. God if things could have just been easier...

"Of course it does. It means more to me than any of this, the ball, the dress, Scott." He shivered at her touch, just barely suppressing the urge to pull her into his arms. At least he knew that he meant something to her. The question was, how much? "But I just.. please, give me some time to think." He felt so bad for her. Aiden had already faced the decision she was having to consider. It hadn't been easy... it still wasn't easy. He wondered every day if he'd made the wrong decision. At the same time though, he knew that he would've gone crazy if he'd stayed under his parents' thumb... and Stellar probably would as well. She needed to learn to live her own life. She needed to realize that he loved her. He loved her whether or not she wore fancy dresses; whether or not she trod on his toes while dancing; whether or not she knew how to play tennis and speak five languages. All he cared about was her. Why didn't that matter?

"I don't want to lose my parents, but I don't want to lose you either." Aiden shook his head, trying desperately to find something to say that could make the situation better. There wasn't anything to say though. Instead, he closed the distance between them again, finally acting on his impulses. He grabbed her shoulders, kissing her with a lot more force than before. He had about ten to twenty minutes left if he was lucky where he could do something so irrational and he was going to use it to his advantage. He didn't want to let go. He wanted to just die right there rather than walk out the door and never see her again. It was a bit dramatic yes, but then most affairs of the heart were. "Dammit," he muttered, tearing himself away from her before he let himself get too carried away. A foggy brain wasn't going to help the situation.

He bit his lip, moving his gaze frustratedly to the window. He was at a loss for words. Nothing he said could be the right thing. The throbbing in his heart turned into a dull ache as he watched the couple sitting cheerfully on the bench. They didn't have anything to worry about. They were happy and carefree and together. They weren't separated by two different worlds. Aiden closed his eyes, sticking his hands in his pockets helplessly. There were few choices in his life that were so hard. Give up Stellar, convince her to give up everything else she loved, or make an attempt to rejoin the one thing that made him want to kill himself... "I hate this so much," he whispered sadly as he moved back over to her, pressing his lips to her forehead. Hooking up had been a bad idea. It had forced an ultimatum on them that he he'd never imagined facing.

Or perhaps not... He moved a hand to her hair, putting everything he had into another kiss, knowing that it was truly probably one of their last after he voiced the idea he'd just gotten. He didn't want to give her up. It was a crazy idea. It was pretty much asking her to commit upperclass suicide... but if she was willing to take the risk, perhaps her parents wouldn't be as harsh as his. "Don't go to the ball with Scott," he begged. "Take me. I'll do whatever it takes to fit in. I'll dress up, I'll relearn which fork means what... I'll brush up on politics. Just don't go with him." He hated Scott and he'd never even met him. He hated the image of her dancing so close to him, both of them probably tipsy enough to actually enjoy each others company. What if he made a move on her? What if she liked it? Or what if he was one of those rich jerks who thought they had a right to anyone and anything they wanted and went too far with her? He'd have no way of protecting her.

It was ridiculous, he knew. She'd lasted 21 years without him ever there with her, but he'd grown up with the same type of guys she was being escorted by. He knew how they thought, the things they said. They were terrible. And he didn't want to sit by while she was with another guy.
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Aiden seemed to be out of words and Stellar wasn't sure if she could speak without crying now, so she just stood there, trying to cope with the harsh reality. She really wasn't that naive, but it was one of those things you just didn't think about too much, because if you did, this was the result. Sure, when they kicked her sister, she had thought briefly about if it had been her, would they've done the same? Then she figured she didn't want to know and just didn't think about it anymore. Now it was different though, it had actually happened to Aiden, so they couldn't deny it now, upperclass parents did do this kind of stuff. Hers were no different.

She immediately kissed him back as he kissed her, needing this so much, because when they kissed, most of the those bad thoughts got all foggy and it was just the two of them. Her hands went to his back, holding onto him like she was going to die if she let go, because it sure felt like that. Stellar had experienced heartbreak before, but this felt so much worse, it actually hurt, like there was an iron fist around her heart. She hadn't expected to fall for him, the guy who seemed to hate her, who got under her skin like no one else, who got high and had sex with girls in bars. Okay, so she had been the girl in that case, but still, he was nothing like her ex boyfriends. Which was a good thing of course, she liked the way he was, she liked to hear him sing and how he teased her, but still treated her like a lady. To lose all of that, she wasn't sure if she could handle that.

Opening her eyes as he pulled away, she followed his gaze to the happy couple, making a face. How could this have happened? Weren't they way too young to think about this? They should be doing silly things like running around the park, go skinny dipping at night, have sex on the beach, whatever, but not this. Stellar sighed, pushing herself up onto the desk and swinging her legs. "I hate this so much," She glanced at him and nodded. "You're not the only one." Stellar smiled slightly as he kissed her forehead and wrapped her legs around him, moving to rest her head against his shoulder.

Kissing him back, she pulled him closer, one hand going to his hair as well, the other on his lower back. Stellar groaned softly as he pulled back, grinning a little. "Stop doing that." She hit his shoulder playfully and pushed his hair back, looking up at him. "Don't go to the ball with Scott, take me. I'll do whatever it takes to fit in. I'll dress up, I'll relearn which fork means what... I'll brush up on politics. Just don't go with him." Stellar tilted her head, touched by the way he was willing to go with her back to the world he hated so much, the world that had kicked him out. She cupped his face with her hands and kissed him again, softly and then pulled back, keeping her lips close to his. It would be great, she pictured them together at the ball, dancing, showing everyone how in love they were. Scott could go to hell, she would much rather go with Aiden. There was just one tiny problem: her parents.

Yes, they were just her parents, but she also knew how evil they could be when they disliked people. Her dad, her caring dad who taught her to ride a bike, that same guy could give you look so cold it made grown men shiver. Her mother, who looked innocent enough with her sparkling blue eyes, blonde hair and smiling face, could make the most hurtful comments. Oh, Stellar could remember a few, especially about food, weight and clothes. Could their relationship handle that? Did she want Aiden to go through all of that just for her? No, no she didn't, she didn't want him to meet her parents, no matter how lovely it would've been to dance with him all night.

"Aiden," She started and kissed him again, then sighing softly. "No, I don't want you to go with me. It's just one night, I just don't want to subject you to my parents just yet." Stellar hoped her wouldn't take it the wrong way, she loved, yes, loved him but she was sure her parents would fuck everything up.
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Images from the night at the bar flashed through Aiden's mind as he and Stellar tried to decide if they wanted to kiss or talk. His stomache flipped as she wrapped her legs around him. He wanted her. In every single sense of the word. She was making it so hard for him to focus. His hands shook as he fought the urge to let the fight go and do what he really wanted to do. It was just too important though. This wasn't something they could just pick up later and talk about again. It had to be decided then and now. He couldn't be around her and just be her friend anymore. The night at the bar had changed that completely.

It wasn't like Stellar couldn't agree. At first, he wasn't sure about her feelings for him, but with the way she was clinging to him, she definitely felt something. That was the most frustrating thing. He knew she loved him too. There was no good reason that they shouldn't be together. It was ridiculous!

"Stop doing that." Aiden gave a weak grin as Stellar hit him playfully, melting inwardly as she pushed his hair back and stared up at him. How could he have not realized how much he loved her before? That moment was what they should've been. They was what they could've been...if she would just make a choice.

He knew that he wasn't being fair to her. It wasn't exactly an easy choice. But it was an unavoidable one. For a moment, after he asked her to take him to the ball, he thought that she had actually decided... that she was going to say yes. For a single moment, his heart was flying. Then she pulled him closer and kissed him. It was too soft and too light... it was a way to soften the rejection that was coming. His heart plummeted. No! No no no... it wasn't fair! She couldn't seriously refuse him altogether could she?

"No, I don't want you to go with me. It's just one night, I just don't want to subject you to my parents just yet." More like she didn't want to subject her parents to him. Aiden clenched his jaw, moving away from her briskly. She was lying. To make everything worse, she was lying. She was embarrassed of him! How could he not have seen it before? She swore that she didn't care that he had nothing, but that was only when others weren't around. She didn't want to give up her world for him, and she didn't want him joining her world. She didn't want others to know the type of person that had finally captured her heart.

"Don't tell me that you love me and then stand there and lie to me, Stellar," he whispered angrily. "You're all the same. All you and your friends and your family cares about is how you look, who you're seen with, and the way others talk about you. Your stupid parties and your stupid balls... that's all that matters. I get it. I can't believe I didn't see it before but I get it now. I'm just something else that you'll push under the bed years from now... your secret fling. Just tell me that you're embarrassed of me Stellar, that's fine. But don't try to make it seem like you're rejecting me for my own good." He ran a hand through his hair, trying to act like he didn't notice how hard he was shaking. He'd forgotten how much rejection stung.

"It doesn't even matter. Go to the damn ball with Scott. Make a big show of being the perfect, young couple. You won't ever have to bear the shame of telling them who you really love because I can't do this. I cannot be with you one day then sit around while you're out with other guys." He moved back towards Stellar, stopping only a few inches in front of her. Part of him wanted to kiss her one last time, but he just couldn't do it. "I love you, but if that's not going to be enough then I'm going to have to accept that. I hope you and Scott have a good time." He stood there for another moment, still trying to decide whether or not to kiss her. He went with not. If he was done with stellar he had to be completely done. Instead, he gave a slight bow and turned to walk out of the room, leaving the door open behind him.
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