Sitting In His Room Alone... As Usual, {Open}

[Black Star Supernova]

Josh was walking around the lengths of his room, he was bored, upset and well just in his regular mood, he didnt have that many friends and all the friends he did have were busy and he didnt have a girlfriend or boyfriend either so he cant call them up.

he dropped onto his bed and stared up at the ceilng before getting up and turning on his stereo, he looked through his CD collection, he slid out a CD and put it into the CD player, he flicked through the songs until one of his fave songs came on "Welcome Home (Sanitarium) - Bullet for my Valentine" He Picked up his quitar and played along to it aswell as singing

Welcome to where time stands still
no one leaves and no one will
Moon is full, never seems to change
just labeled mentally deranged
Dream the same thing every night
I see our freedom in my sight
No locked doors, No windows barred
No things to make my brain seem scarred

Sleep my friend and you will see
that dream is my reality
They keep me locked up in this cage
can't they see it's why my brain says Rage

Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, just leave me alone

Build my fear of what's out there
and cannot breathe the open air
Whisper things into my brain
assuring me that I'm insane
They think our heads are in their hands
but violent use brings violent plans
Keep him tied, it makes him well
he's getting better, can't you tell?

No more can they keep us in
Listen, damn it, we will win
They see it right, they see it well
but they think this saves us from our Hell

Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, just leave me alone
Sanitarium, just leave me alone

Fear of living on
natives getting restless now
Mutiny in the air
got some death to do
Mirror stares back hard
Kill, it's such a friendly word
seems the only way
for reaching out again.

[Black Star Supernova]

As the song was finishing Josh was starting to feel more and more like shit, he pulled out his album collection again and looked for another disc. He took out BFMV and put in the new one, and flicked through it until he found the appropeate song. Hands Down - Dashboard Confessional he looked on his calander, 2 weeks until a new term, Shit he said under his breath, it may be 2 weeks to a new term but for him its 2 weeks until a new life of hell and torture. He hated school because he got treated like shit, his pale arms were covered in new and old scars from his previous depressions. This guy has had some rough times, even on his soft throat he has scars of previous suicide attempts, but the last thing he wants is people pittying him. A sound came from his bed side table, Josh walked upto it and picked up his cell then held it upto his ear

Hello Josh answered quietly
Hey Joshy whats up? you doing anything today? said a female voice on the other line
nah why? he answered still quiet
oh just wonderin' cause im bored and no one wants to go out so i was wonderin if you wanna
josh though for a few moments then sat on his bed
nah not really, feelin like shit again he just said quietly
Awh come on babs, a bit of fresh air will be good for ya
nah not today Lilly, i dont feel upto it he said, the girl went quiet then said
Well okay then babes talk to you later
yeh see ya later
Mwah

he hung up then put his phone back on the side. he laid down on his bed and listened to his music

Breathe in For luck,
Breathe in so deep,
This air is blessed,
You share with me.
This night is wild,
So calm and dull,
These hearts they race,
From self control.
Your legs are smoothe,
As they graze mine,
Were doing fine,
Were doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
That your kiss might kill me,
So wont you kill me,
So i die happy?
My heart is yours,
To fill or burst,
To break or bury,
Or wear as jewellery,
Which ever you prefer.

Their words are harsh,
Lets not get busted,
Just lay entwined here,
undescovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions,
'Hey did you get some?' man that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, Stay Near, stay Close,
They cant hear...
So we can get some.

My hopes are so high,
That your kiss might kill me,
So wont you kill me,
So i die happy.
My heart is yours,
To fill or burst,
To break or bury,
Or wear as jewellery.
Which ever you prefer

Hands down this is the best day i can ever remember,
Ill always remember,
The sound of the stereo,
The dim of the soft lights,
The scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers,
And the time on your clock when we realised its so late,
And this walk that we shared together,
The streets were wet,
And the gate was locked,
So i jumped it,
And let you in,
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist,
And you kissed me like you meant it,
And i knew, that you meant it,
That you meant it,
That you meant it,
And i knew, that you meant it,
That you meant it.