dust

[Sammy]

*sitting on the floor of my blog looking at the dust and feeling bad for it all. My room here hasnt really been used all that much recently and all it ever seems to be used for is my whining. A nursery room is supposed to be full of that bright airy light feeling of new experiences, of new life and laughter. But mines not, and now's no exception.

I think sammy may be going away and that feeling of emptiness inside of me scares me, it scares me alot and even admitting that its going away makes me really really upset because i dont want it to go away, but it is, i dont know whether its because my adult part of my life has been so dominant pretty much since I moved in with daddy that my little side has gotten less and less until shes pretty easy to ignore now. I dont want to ignore her but sammy doesnt really come out unless I feel safe and daddys daddy side hasnt really been around alot cause of his work and stress in his life, pretty much since the beginning of the year, so because he hasnt been able to be daddy I havent felt safe to be sammy. I think I hafta be patient and wait for daddys daddy side to come back and to hope that one day it will come back because I dont think sammy can ever go away completely forever but for now I think shes just not around and thats kinda why ive been quiet here and quiet on my other blog just because ive not really been feeling like me for quite some time now. So im sorry kay if people think ive been ignoring them or been being rude. I havent meant to be. im just only half a person right now. *hugs*

[baby_alicep]

mes understands. difrent fings can chages ones. like when mes friends dieds mes stopeds comings heres fors ans bits. mes was mes. but gus u coeds says ans vers sads babys. but if ones donts feew safes its hards tos bes ones sewfs. mes afrades to makes friends n meet peopwes anys mores but mes wiww gwts backs to makings friends just as sammys wiww comes bacls. just takes times/



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*suckwes mes paci*